I think the worst feeling is being numb
That unsettling calm smothering you
Becoming a blank slate
Eyes cold and dull
Mouth a thin line
Sitting still like a rotting corpse
Smelling like desperation and depression
I watch my life go by without a thing to say
I miss who I once was
But then I think was I ever truly happy then
Was I damaged from the start
Is that why all those bad things happened
It's gotten to the point where I've had more lows than highs
I feel so tired all the time
It's the only place I find some kind of piece
When my eyes are closed and my brain quiet
I'm so drained
I can barely function anymore
I feel like a shell
Nothing makes me happy anymore
Vile thoughts flood my mind
Of a blade cutting pale skin
Red rivers running down
Staining the bathroom floor
Just so I can feel something again
It's pathetic isn't it?
