TW// low self esteem
Can you d one where the reader is yelling at themselves about how they are worthless etc. when one of the boys walk in
You heard the bunker door close and knew you were all alone now, the boys had gone out to hunt [insert favourite monster] in the state over. You didn't like to be alone as it meant that all distractions had been removed and it was just you and your mind now. You and your mind weren't friends, your mind hated you, constantly insulting you. There was a constant war between you two.
You got up from the library, walking into the nearest bathroom. You decided to shower as a distraction. You looked in the mirror and your mind started again, calling insults. Louder and louder. More powerful every time. Each one felt like a punch in the gut. You had enough, you started screaming out what your mind was telling you.
"Pathetic! Useless! Worthless! Disgusting! Horrible! Ugly!" You screamed, gripping onto your hair as hot, fresh tears slid down your face. "No one needs me! I'm a waste of air! I'm fat and disgusting and worthless. Oh god, so so worthless" You carried on screaming, shaking and crying heavily now.
You were too busy having an emotional breakdown that you didn't hear that the boys had come back in, having forgotten something. They heard you screaming, not being able to process what you were actually saying due to your mumbling from tears, and assumed that you were being hurt, they all rushed to the door, Sam and Dean with guns in their hands, Castiel just being.. Castiel, and opened the door looking around you. All of their eyes softened from alert to sadness as they saw you and realised what you were saying and what was happening. Sam and Dean put their guns away and they all walked into the room. Castiel put a hand on your shoulder and called your name and you collapsed into his arms. He sat on the floor, cradling your sobbing body.
"I just wanna die. I just want it to stop" You sobbed loudly, unable to see from crying so much and your throat burning from screaming.
Castiel gently stroked your hair, soothing you. Sam and Dean knelt down to you, Sam wiped away your tears gently.
"Y/N, why would you say all those things about yourself? None of it's true, you're an amazing person and an amazing hunter" Dean spoke softly, not wanting to spook you or anything.
"Dean's right, you know? You're a beautiful person and we all love you. You are worth so much to us, more than your weight in gold." Sam agreed, helping calm you down by stroking your hand.
"Dean and Sam are both speaking the truth, you're an incredible entity and you can do incredible things. You are definitely not worthless, you are all put here for a reason. All of you, humans, are works of art, especially you, you are akin to any of Picasso's work. " Castiel smiled, realising all of their words were helping to calm you down.
You smiled up at them all, sniffing. "Y-You guys really think so?" You smiled even wider when they all nodded at your question. "I love you guys, thank you so much, you really helped, I'm sorry for you having to see me like this."
"It's fine, Y/N, speak to us next time about this okay? We all care so much about you." Dean ruffled your hair.
"I just need a distraction, that's all, so I don't have to think" You mumbled, sitting up and wiping your eyes.
Sam helped you stand up. "Come on the hunt with us?" Sam suggested, smiling at you.
You agreed and you all went out to gank some monsters as a team.
