Help me?≈Chapter Five

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by LEDlights08

by LEDlights08

A/N: TW: Mentions of Self Harm, drugs, smoking, alcohol. Bit fluffy not a lot tho.

Juicy's POV:

I open the door and Eddie steps in he's in shock when he sees where I live. The state I live in. I do feel ashamed about my living state I also feel unsafe that Eddie now knows where I live and what my 'home' is like. I know he could hold it against me. I just hope he won't.

"Dawg do you seriously live here?" He asks. "Yeah I told you it was a shit hole." I reply. "What about your parents, family?" It was the same question the boys asked me. "Let's not." I say. "So whatchu want?" I ask bending down to lift up the floor board. "I have heroin, weed and coc." I say. "I'll take some weed that's it for now." "Okay." I weigh it out for him. I also give him some rice paper.

"How much?" He asks. Oh wow I don't think he'd actually pay me. "Depends how much u got." I reply. "I can give you thirty." "Yeah that'll do." He hands me the money and I give him the goods. "Can I use the bathroom real quick?" Eddie asks. "Yeah sure." I point to the room.

Whilst Eddie is in there, I get my heroin bag and pour some out on a spoon. I use my lighter to melt it and wait a little for it to cool. I use the syringe and inject it into myself. I grab a beer from the fridge and have a cig. I just sit there against the wall on the floor waiting for Eddie.

Eddie's POV:
Gaege hands me the bag of weed I give him the money. "Can I use the bathroom real quick?" I ask. "Yeah sure." He replies as he points to a door. I walk in. It's grimy and dirty. The shower is dirty the tiles are dirty the sink is red? Why was the sink red? I look to my side. A box. I finish and wash my hands before leaving. I open that box. It had razors bandages alcohol wipes all the necessities if you got hurt. Or in fact hurt yourself. My heart went from in my chest to down to my stomach.

"Gaege." I whispered. I felt guilty so so guilty. Like it was my fault. I was so mean to him. But it was only because I love him. I don't wanna be gay. Some say I might be in denial I can't lose my reputation not now, not after I worked so hard to get to the top. When we held pinkys earlier my heart skipped a beat. I wonder if his did to? I mean it probably didn't since I'm horrible to him. I don't know what to do now. But I know no one can find out what happened not now, not today, not tomorrow, not ever!

I leave the bathroom. I confront him about the box. He's just sat there on the floor a needle next to him. A cig in one hand and beer in the other. I was broken by this sight but I'm sure he was shattered.

"Gaege." I say he looks up at me. "What's the first aid box for? And the razors." I finish.

Juicy's POV:
Eddie comes out of the bathroom he just stops and looks at me. "Gaege." He says. I look up at him. "What's the first aid box for? And the razors?" Shit. For gods sake why didn't I put them away. "Nothing Eddie. It's none of your concern. If you wanna beat me up or something go ahead it's not like anyone will know is it." I say opening my arms and closing my eyes in preparation for a punch, smack or kick. The floor boards creak as he gets closer.

His knee cracked as he crouched down to my height. I felt a hand in my chin. I open my eyes, Just the one. Just the slightest. Eddie was staring at me in my one squinting eye. "Gaege look at me." He says. I do as I'm told I turn to face him. "Gaege I'm not gonna hurt you anymore." I'm taken back by his words. I notice a tear in his eye. Eddie had gone from total bully to caring.

"Gaege I want to help you."

A/N: hehehehehehehehehehehehehheheehhehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehheheehehehehehheheheehheehhehe a cliff hanger ENJOY. What will happen next? What will they do? Will anyone find out? Lmk if you want more chapters. x

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