Matrimonio Rotto

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"I like the idea." I turned my head to look at him. What was he talking about now? We had done eating lunch and we were now sitting on the couch in the living room while watching Fio playing around.

"What idea?" I asked.

"Getting married again... to you," he replied while looking at my eyes. His eyes were gleaming and they had been like that for a while, right after his mother chirped out the idea of planning our wedding.

"You just sign a divorce paper earlier and you want to tie the knot again. How do you think my father would react?" Did he not realize that her father was also mine? I felt like he was just moving in a circle with Marsello.

"Happy," he confidently said.

"Father?" Veronica jumped in as soon as the mention of my father was brought into our conversation. "What father are you talking about?"

I quietly ask for help through my eyes. I hope he got what I was trying to say.

"We found her father and you won't believe who he is," James looked excited like he had a new topic to gossip on. So, his mother turned her attention fully on him, she was getting intrigued.

"Who is he?" she asked.

James looked at me, silently asking for permission to tell his mother about my newly found biological father. I nodded my head to give him permission.

"Who is he, James?" Veronica impatiently asked.

"Mr. Blakemore, Marsello," he said and she froze for a moment. When she came out of realization, she turned to me in disbelief.

"So, you are hers all along," she told me. "I can't believe that this is how we met. So, where is she now?" I could see how it hit her emotionally and she had that hopeful look in her eyes.

"My mother is dead," I told her.

"Why?" I was taken aback by her question.

"What do you mean by asking why, Mother?" James intervened, finding that question strange as well.

"Why?" She repeated. We still didn't understand why she acted like this, so we just keep still. "Why did she have to leave this world? Why did he not protect her properly?"

"She was overdosed, Mother. Nobody could save her because she went AWOL," I tried to explain to her about my mother's situation. I didn't know for sure, that was just the answer I get.

What shocked us was Veronica started crying. James clearly didn't know what to do as he was just watching his mother cry. So, I moved closer to comfort her. I wrapped my arm around her back and just be there until she calm down on her own.

"Poor you, my child." She pulled me into a hug and started crying harder. "If I knew she was pregnant, I would have told her to use my cabin if peace is what she needed. My poor Lena."

"She's in a better place now, I hope." I caressed her back as I wish for my mother's happiness even in the other world she lived in now. Hearing her story about my mother, I imagined she was a lovely woman with the best partner. Only they lived in the wrong time.

"She has to be," Veronica replied.

"Mama." I slowly pulled away from her when my daughter called me.

"Yes, my sweet girl?" I answered, opening my arms to welcome her as she was running towards me.

"Nap, please," she said in the cutest way possible. Her eyes were already halfway shut and as soon as I put her on my lap, she laid her head on my chest.

"Go, put her to sleep." Veronica shooed me up, telling me to go ahead. "I'll be on my way now. You guys, take some rest, okay? I'll talk to you again later." She patted my head softly.

"Okay, take care, Mother." After I said goodbye to her, I walked up the stairs to the bedroom.

Turned out, Fiorelli was already falling asleep as I put her down on the bed. I get on the bed and lay next to her just to make sure she fell asleep comfortably.

After a while, I didn't realize I was falling asleep as well if it wasn't for the door being open. I turned to the door with my sleepy eyes and saw James coming in.

"You can go back to sleep, mother has gone home. You must be tired since the morning playing with her." He sat down next to me. He peeked at his daughter before giving her a kiss on the forehead. "Can I lay here?"

"Mhh... ." I nodded my head, allowing him to sleep next to me.

So, he lay behind me and I felt him kissing the back of my neck. I could also feel his breath fanning me.

"Your father is looking for Suzy. He said she has not contacted him in any form," James said. His arm slowly wrapped around my stomach.

"Oh, where could she be? I don't think I see her around the house," I replied, telling him that nobody informed me anything about any guest or intruder.

"Your father said he will take care of her. He doesn't want you to worry about her anymore. So--, " he stopped talking and make me curious about what was stopping him. I turned my head to him to see what he was thinking.

"Have you thought about what Mother said earlier?" I could see his eyes showing that he was hesitant but undaunted.

"It has not even been a day since your mother said it. Is there time for me to think about it? Moreover, there's still your father that I have to think about," I said honestly what I was thinking. If I were to get married to him again, things had changed now.

My father was still alive and his parents knew about our relationship now. Things were just not like in the past, where the water flowed quietly and smoothly.

"I'm going to meet my father tomorrow. It's been a while since I saw him," I told him. Suddenly, the thought of wanting to see my father came. I had not seen him since our trip.

"Okay." I frowned when I heard his response so unlike him. He was not being persistent like always. "Can I come with you?"

I thought too soon.

You guys, I'm uncertain about how to end this story. It's not the end yet but like when is the question here.

I'm not sure how to keep this going and how to fill the story with. I'm sure there's still something that I can write.

So... See you in the next chapter.