My Ex and I

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"Are you okay? Did you earn a lot having eye-bug under your eyes?"nate ask me and I look at him.

"No nate.. No"I said and he just look away like he is afraid wanna know why I had a eye-bug?

LAST NIGHT

It's already night and everyone left I am the only one who is here because I am 30 minutes late and I left my work.

"My coat still looks good on you"someone said and I look up to see junkai looking at me those eyes... it still the same eyes that admire me a lot.. I miss those.

"Y-yeah... I will give it back to you! After I wash it tomorrow!"I said and he smile a little.

"Sure"he simply said and leave I remember we are not together again so he can stay with me who am I kidding to? Hahahaha I just sat down again and work. After finishing my work I was about to leave the company.

"Sir yuan! Mr junkai gave this to you!"
The guard said and gave the paper bag.

"O-oh... T-thank you sir!"I said and he pat my shoulder I look around hoping to see him but he already left so I just go home and open the paper bag it was my favorite chicken I smile widely he still remember what my favorite is.

"Why are you smiling?"roy ask me and I look at him.

"A-ah nothing! Just a good day I had and we have a chicken now let's eat"we eat while happily talking after we eat roy clean the dishes while I swipe the floor after that we sleep.

MORNING

I neatly fold junkai coat and put it in a small paper bag I decided to spray my perfume into it smiling while carrying it to the office before anyone can arrived I am already there so I can leave junkai coat in his office I look at the time and it's still early so I decided to have a coffee.

"One cafe mocha please"I said

"That will be 20¥"she said and I gave the money.

I waited for a moment and my order arrived while drinking I was listening to the warm and calming music that the store playing while I am having a moment I feel someone sat in-front of me.

"So... this is the place where you buy a coffee ah?"Junkai ask and I just nod not speaking I look away he didn't say a word when he suddenly spoke.

"You haven't change a bit you still like chocolate shake"he said and leave after he get his drinks. I just sit there spacing out after what he said. After drinking all the coffee I leave the café and suddenly vickey appear in front of me.

"This Friday lay zhang and his other shares holder will come and you know what to do"she said and leave can I just disappear?! I couldn't do it! I can't! But I can't risk my brothers life. I walk inside the company and everyone was staring at me.

"Yuan? Have you seen the post?"khen ask me and I shake my head saying NO.

"Look"he simply said and gave his phone and I saw a picture of me and junkai before which mean they know that I am junkai EX... I was trembling I gave khen his phone back and run to elevator to my desk I sat down.

And do my work but I couldn't focus suddenly karry came to me.

"So your my brother EX?"he ask me I just bow my head down.

"Finish this today"he said and leave a 6 folder into my desk and some of them laugh and whisper that I deserve it.

EVENING

It's already 9pm and I already done also I haven't eaten yet after finishing it I collected it and gave to karry he just nod and shoo me away I bow and close his door I clean my desk and leave the company.

MORNING

I woke up tiredly for the first time in my life to don't wanna go to work but I have to for me and my brother to live.

I arrived at the company everyday they talk sht about me of course but this time they also do what college and high bullies do.... Throwing trash to my desk I just pick it up and they laugh junkai just walk past by to me of course his not gonna save me.

I just do my work not talking just work work work.... And do what vickey and his mother want to me.

LUNCH

I was out for lunch since anyone didn't like me so I eat outside but then.... Someone pour a juice to me.

"Oopp..!! I thought you needed to wake up for being gay! HAHAHA"sarah said and leave I just wipe it and didn't talk I am tired really tired. After eating lunch I go inside my clothes are wet and just sat down they are still whispering but not for gossip because I am wet.

"Why are you wet?"junkai ask me out of nowhere.

"Why do you care?"I ask him back and go to printer to print my report he didn't talk back,
I am already tired being alive witnessing my parents die always hunts me... I wish I could be with them.

"If I die will someone care about me?"I whispered and pick all the papers I print walking straight to my desk again.

MORNING

It's already morning same routine cooking, eating and taking bath but this time everyone in the company didn't whisper or gossiping about me and I don't care.... after all I am trash for being gay.

While spacing out I didn't know that I stab my hands using the ball-pen I am holding.

"Yuan fini—-AHHH"karen shouted and pointing at my hands. Karry run to my desk his eyes widen.

"What the! You are bleeding! Aren't you hurt?! Clean it!"karry said and I just nod walking away.

"What the hell is wrong with you?! Aren't you in pain?!"karry shouted before I can leave everyone was looking at me even him.

"No... It's not hurt... I want more"I calmly said and leave some of them gasp I just go to the bathroom and wash it with water I can't feel pain I become numb.

"What is wrong with you?! If you want attention don't do it here at my company!! Fix yourself!"junkai said and I turn off the faucet and look at him in his eyes I can see that he saw my eyes are emotionless.

"As you said sir"I simply said and leave him behind getting my towel and wrap it into my hand's continue my work.

AT NIGHT

I fix my things and leave.

"Sir yuan! Sir junkai gave this to you"the guard said and gave me a paper bag I just look at it and smile at him a little.

"You can have it sir"I said but he shake his head.

"I think this is medicine"he said but I smile.

"Just leave it there.. I am fine"I said and leave.

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