My heartbreak

The End of a Start

Our relationship ended.
And my heartbreak started.
I could never imagine your sweet words turning ice cold in my ears
But the day has come
And you have left me
I have been terrible to you a year ago, that's what you said.
You said you don't want to love me anymore because it means nothing but a waste of youth
Oops, there goes my youth, and the dreams of it.
I really loved your blue eyes
I loved your ego, I found it cute
I loved how you got bored so easily with everyone, but not with me, ever.
I thought i was irreplaceable in your life as you still say i am, even after 3 months of our breakup
You said i was the only one in the world for you when i asked you to tell something nice, even if it's a lie.
Because i was so hurt from your harsh words that said i cannot give you my time no more.
I cannot text you no more
I cannot meet you no more
I cannot make you feel spoiled for i think you are the last person on earth to deserve it.
You kept insulting me
And myself being such a fool, i digested everything with tears in my eyes.
It was a poisonous fruit that you gave me
After swallowing the whole, I asked you;
"Can you say something nice please? Otherwise the pain seems to unbearable for me to let my lungs breath. Even a lie works at this point, i don't care no more"
Before our breakup i had the most pride in the world
And see what a state you kept me in?
I was very angry with myself that i allowed you to kill me with your words, then begged for you for a little painkiller
I asked you if you think that i am the only one in the world even after the two years?
You said yes
Even after all these bad memories?
"Despite everything" you said
I was happy
I was naive