depressed tom kaulitz x reader

part 2:

pov: tom
i wake up the next day in my bed to bill freaking singing at me. "shut the fuck up." i say. he sings louder. i just get up and grab some clothes and my bag and go to the bathroom. i lock the door. i grab my cart out of my bag and my vape and start going ham. then i turn on the fan and all the smoke goes away. bill doesn't know i smoke and he's all like "drugs are bad" so even though weed isn't even a drug he would freak the fuck out. i immediately get high as fuck. this honestly helps. i can't cut myself when i'm high or the pain like echos throughout my whole body. i don't know how else to describe it. i change clothes and finish getting ready and then i leave the bathroom and sit back on my bed and bill is still singing. "bro." i say as i pick up my phone. we don't have any shows today so i can just chill. i look at my phone and see a text from an unknown number.

today, 10:32am
hey this is y/n. i just wanted to let you know i'm free today if you want to hang out.

i smile at my phone as i read it. i quickly respond.

11:04
yeah, sure what do you want to do?

11:05
"wanna come over and smoke pot?"

11:05
um...duh? send the addy. what time should i be over?

11:06
871 johnston ave. 12:30? we can get the munchies and eat lunch.

i get worried. what if she makes me eat. i don't want to loose me starving streak. it's been 3 days.

11:10
sure i'll be there but i just ate a late breakfast and i don't really get the munchies.

11:11
well you should at least try eating something. anyway, can't wait to see you!

11:11
yeah you too :)

i set my phone down and smile to myself which no doubt bill notices. "who you textin?" he says smirking. "just a friend" i say smiling even more. "oh really? and who's this friend?" he asks still smirking. "y/n" i say and then i get up and start packing my bag for y/n's. i pack a spare lighter, some super strong cologne, some extra bud as well as my cart, vape, and eye drops incase i get really fucked up. then i put the address in my phone and see how long it'll take me to get there. it says it's a 10 minute walk and it's almost 12:20 now bc i sat and scrolled through edits of myself on tiktok so it's time to go. i let bill know im leaving and he keeps asking where i'm going. i finally say "y/n's house" and then i walk out. once i finally get there y/n is sitting outside smoking a cig so i just walk up and grab it out of her hand and take a nice long drag. then i hand it back to her "hey. how are you?" i ask. "im doing okay. and how are you?" she asks. "high." i say simply. "mm well get ready cuz i got some good shit." she takes one more drag and drops the cigarette and stomps on it. she opens the door and we both go inside. "welcome" she says and takes me to her room where i immediately feel at home. it smells like incense and patchouli. there's tapestries all over the walls and fairy lights and fake vines. i love it. i sit down on her bed and she sits next to me pulling out a pipe and like a pound of weed from her side table drawer. "now don't worry we're not smoking all of it today. i gotta make this baby last." she says giggling. "how did you even get the money for that?" i ask confused. "sugar daddy" she says giggling again. "aye you better not have a sugar daddy!" i said half joking half serious. "aye don't worry about it." she says. i then start to become concerned she might actually have a sugar daddy. i can tell she can tell but she doesn't say anything which worries me even more. anyway we spend the next 8 hours smoking pot and getting to know each other. she also gets me to eat and i don't even feel bad about it. she tells me to think about it as nourishing my body so i can perform instead of something scary. i get home around eight and let me just say i think the universe has put the most amazing person in the world in my life.