invisible strings (jensoo)

She's worth all of me

JISOO'S POV

Why do I feel good today

Is it because of jennie?

It is because of jennie!

I have never felt this way, not even when I was with Soojin or Hae-in or- you know there are a lot of people I might as well not list all of them

With Jennie it's like being saved from drowning in a vast ocean, it's like hot breeze during cold weather. It's so weird yet so sacred for me.

I look at her and her cat-like eyes, her gummy smile, her adorable little face, her scared little heart when she's unsure....it hurts believe me but it's HER.

Even if she's not sure about us I am willing to make her believe, I am way too deep in very little time but if you ask me, I am willing to do it all over again

She's worth all of me

My thoughts were interrupted as I got a text from her

Good morning chu

WAIT, what the fuck is chu??

The pancakes were orgasmic so good

Before I could reply she deleted the text, girl what???

She sends another text instead

The pancakes were so good loved them

I'll meet you in the cafeteria after your class

Oh right, I was in my class I totally forgot. History is going to be the death of me.

Are you ignoring me?

Did I do something?

I am sorry I felt you up in my sleep I didn't mean to

Did I do something?????

Why are you leaving me on seen?

Fuck history, Jennie Kim will be CAUSE of my death before history could even step in.

Have I mentioned that she's annoying sometimes not more than me but still is

I replied back

No, I am not ignoring you

I am in class and yes I'll meet you in cafeteria

I'm sorry I took so long to reply

To which she responded

It's okay I forgive you

Meet me there

I rolled my eyes at the text and turned my phone off

I still had 1 hour before this class ends, I went back to my jennie thoughts

I swear when she said "no don't go, stay?" It warmed my heart so much I couldn't get the words out of my mouth so I just nodded.

You don't know how it makes me feel when I people show vulnerability because it something I am clearly not comfortable with

It's just I've never had anyone showing vulnerability or let the least even had a chance to feel safe

I guess this is what you get with years of insecurities, jennie is different she's not afraid to show vulnerability and definitely not afraid to speak her mind if needed

I for one am a person who has her feelings sorted I can't allow myself being a mess nor can make people around me bothered by my feelings, it's weird I know but I am not okay with change for now.

I hope I will be different

I hope I have something to hold onto

I am not willing to change just yet but maybe in the future I can I think

Change can be good but not for me...for now

Well

I am planning to take Jennie out on a date tonight

As much I've known jennie, she likes color blue, absolutely HATE sharing and she likes to spend quality time especially while sitting in my lap lol

I am inviting her to my place for pizza and to watch some movies.

And maybe if she wants, I can sing for her

I love singing for her

The class got over and started to make my way towards the cafeteria