Im Gay...

Chapter 4 : My Dream Guy.

Everything went black.

I couldn't see, I was shocked, blood was coming from my nose, and all I could hear were people running, a mixture of laughing and Jess saying "Good job babe! Fag got lucky this time!"

By the time I realized what was happening, I could see Jess, Leon, and Levi running down the road.

I walked inside, and tried sneaking past my mom to the bathroom. I didn't want her to see what happened, I didn't want to worry her even more.

Luckily she didn't see my face, and apparently still isn't speaking to me, so I was able to clean myself up before she noticed.

"Hey mom, can we talk?
"I guess it's about that time. Sit down." She said motioning for me to sit beside her.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, or anyone. That im.. gay." It felt so good to say those words. All my life I've kept it a secret, ran away from it, and now, saying those words out loud gives me a huge sense of relief. On the other hand it was very uncomfortable for me to say something I hid for so long, out loud.

"I guess I've always known. I just didn't want to believe it, well, I didn't want to believe that you wouldn't tell me. But I understand. And I accept you.. but others wont, not in this small, judgemental town. I talked to Jeff, and he doesn't mind if we move back home, I don't want you to live here miserably babe. So if you want to go, we will go tomorrow." She said seriously.

"Mom, I would never ever take you away from this. I haven't seen you this happy for years, since dad passed away! This is home for us now.. People don't have to accept me. I accept me, and so do you. And it's just me and you against the world, always has been.. I'll be okay. We're staying. Got it?" I ended in a joking tone. I couldn't take this happiness away from my mom. It's time I finally deal with the fact that I'm gay.

"You've always been brave Brycey. You get that from your dad. He would be so proud of you." She said as she kissed my forehead.

I'm not sure if my dad would like the fact that I'm gay. But I do know he would accept me. And love me no matter what. That's all that matters.

"Alright mom, goodnight." I said as I walked to my room.

I don't know how I'm going to live with jess, and Leon here. I'm going to have to confront them, and let them know I'm not going anywhere, and no matter how many times we fight I'm still going to be gay. Maybe she will get over her stupid homophobia.

I thought of so many things that night. And how I would deal with them. I have to deal with them. So I will.

The next morning I woke up to a text from Zane, asking if we could meet up and talk. So after showering and getting ready, I texted back and asked where he wanted to meet. He said to meet him at his house and we would go somewhere.

Everyone was still asleep, it was early. So I left quietly and started walking towards Zanes. I didn't check the time, but the sun is just starting to come up.

"What do you think you're doing walking on my street faggot?" I heard someone say. I turned to see a stranger I have never met walking toward me.

"Uh.. You are?" I replied confused as ever. He kept walking toward me slowly. He was built well, with a big beard and dark, creepy eyes. He was the same height as me, but weighed much more.

"I'm someone you're going to wish you didn't run into!" He said threateningly.

I didn't say any more words. I walked toward him, and he walked toward me until we met, as we met I swung and hit him, knocking him down. I jumped on him and hit him more times than I could count before I got up.

"Just because I like dick doesn't mean I can't kick your ass. Clearly I don't like pussies." I said as I turned around and walked away.

I've never been much of a fighter, but with all that's been going on lately, I had so much built up anger, that I exploded on him. It made me feel good though, like maybe people would stop messing with me now.

I met Zane at the end of his driveway, he told me to follow him, so I did.

"What took you so long?" Zane asked.

"Some guy thought he could push me around because I'm gay." I said simply.

"From the look of your hand i don't think he will try that again." He said and chuckled a little bit.

We arrived at a tree house and we both climbed the ladder and sat down. He told me his father made this for him as a kid, and that he always used to come here with his friends.

"Sorry about yesterday" Zane said apologetically. "I know I kind of blew you off, but ever since jess told everyone you are gay, people have been basically interrogating me. Asking questions like, have you ever tried flirting with me, or if you tried to kiss me... Someone even asked if we were dating." He explained. "I don't want to stop being your friend, I'm not a dick like that, but I don't want to be that kid that everyone talks about being gay because he hangs out with the gay kid, you know?" He said nervously with a sigh. Even when he was telling me he basically couldn't talk to me anymore, I was amazed by how cute he was.

"I understand Zane. Youre my only friend i have here, and i dont want to lose you as a friend... but i also dont want to start drama in your life. I would totally understand if you didnt want to talk to me anymore." I said as I tried to put on a brave face, but each word was like a dagger in my heart.

"I want to be your friend. I just wish we could be friends without all the drama." He said with a small sympathetic smile. "I mean, I don't want you to take this the wrong way, but I was wondering if we could just be friends and not tell anyone?" He asked and with his big pretty smile.

"Awhh you're so sweet" I said sarcastically. "I honestly get it tho, of course we can be secret friends!" I said with a wink.

"I knew you wouldn't say no, I mean come on, look at me. I'm a gay guys dream! He said as he winked.

"You're right. Definitely the guy every gay guy dreams of." I replied sarcastically. If only he knew how much I really meant it though. He was my dream guy.

Zane scooted over to me, apologized and grabbed me and pretended he was going to throw me out of the tree house. I fought back a little, not because I didn't want to fall, I knew he wouldn't really let me. But I liked the feel of his arms around me. The warm, safeness they brought, his body against mine.

After we stopped goofing around, we said our goodbyes as he had to go home.

Although I think I should feel offended, I was actually just happy that Zane still wanted to be my friend. It didn't matter that we kept it a secret.

As I began walking home, I realized I have fixed everything except for the Jess dilemma. So first thing after I wake up from a much needed nap, I'm going to talk to her and try to mend out friendship.

The next morning I woke up feeling determined. I showered, and put on decent clothes and knocked on Jess's bedroom door.

"Come in!" She yelled. So I walked in. "What the fuck do you want? Some more of what you got the other day, gay boy?" She added after realizing I was the one knocking.

"Listen, Jess. I don't really fucking like you either..."

T.h.
How will this conversation go? Do you think Brycey is going to flip out, or mend a friendship? Let me know what you think. Oh, and do you guys think Zane and Brycey will become best friends, or more than that? Let me know what you guys want to see happen! PS CHECK OUT THE ZANE COVER ^^^