Im Gay...

Chapter 5 : I'm Drunk, Okay?

"Listen Jess, I really don't fucking like you either.. You're a judgemental bitch, you're too happy, and too fake. We went from friends to enemies because you found out I was gay? Really? How can you hate someone because they are gay? I didn't choose this. Why would I? If I could make it all go away, I would. I have enough problems without you chiming in with your petty bullshit. Our parents love each other, and if they found out what happened, and what could potentially happen, it would tear them apart, so get your head out of your ass, and do something for your dad. We don't have to be friends, but we do have to get along. Get the fuck over it!" I slammed her door and went to my room.

How could someone be so shallow? Ugh. I'm glad I'm gay. Girls are dumb.

Next thing I know, someone's knocking on the door, "Come in!" I yelled.

"Listen, Brycey, you're totally right. It's not your fault you like guys. I shouldn't have been so mean to you. How about you come and stay at Leons with me tonight? It'll just be us, oh and I think Zane is coming! Let me know in an hour, cause like I'm leaving then." Jess said and left my room.

Wow. I'm shocked. I really didn't think she would get over it. I have to go, I want to see Zane.

I got ready, put on a nice outfit, put on my best cologne and fixed my hair. I want to look good for my secret friend.

Wait. It's going to be awkward. We have to be secret friends. So can I not talk to him tonight? I'll just follow his lead.

I met jess in her room and said I wouldn't mind coming. She said okay and we went out to Leons car, I overlooked his gay comment and we picked up Zane. I wasn't sure if I should talk to him or not, and he mostly talked to Leon so I figured I would just keep quiet.

When we got to Leons, we started drinking. I haven't got drunk forever, I needed this! Everything seemed okay so far, I talked to jess a little, talked to Leon somewhat and only said hi to Zane once, he said hi back, but nothing more.

"So like would you like fuck my boyfriend?" Jess said in slurs. She's getting tipsy.

"No. I actually wouldn't." I said and kind of laughed. I meant it. At first I was blinded by his looks, but he's an ass hole. I don't like his personality at all, and his looks don't even compare to Zanes. I'm good on your boyfriend boo!

"Really? Hey Zane this faggot is talking about fucking me." Leon said in slurs as well, to Zane.

"Wow." Zane said and rolled his eyes. That made me happy.

"Hey, hey Brycey, you silly faggot, dicks are for chicks!" He said while laughing.

Jess started laughing, and they both laughed way to hard, when they realized Zane wasn't laughing they glared at him, Zane took the hint.

"Oh I just got that man!" He said while laughing along with them.

It kind of hurt to have the guy I'm secretly crushing on make fun of me. I understand why he did, but it still hurt.

After I brushed those comments off I'm guessing Leon got bored, and asked Jess to go lay down with him. Leon told Zane he could sleep on the couch in his room and left me by myself.

I went to Leons parents room and figured I'd sleep there. I started to doze off when someone came in the room.

"Hey, Brycey, are you up? Someone said quietly. I knew instantly it was Zane, he has the cutest voice.

"Now I am." I said tiredly. Now I'm wide awake, super happy and glad we get time alone.

"Sorry, mind if I lay down? I'm kinda drunk and don't want to fall down." Zane said with puppy dog eyes while puckering his lip out. Adorable.

"Sure, don't get too close though, you might catch the faggot." I said jokingly.

"Oh shut up, it's not the one that's contagious. You are!" He said with a genuine smile. I wasn't sure how to take that, I'm not even sure If he knew what he meant. Must be the alcohol talking.

"You can cover up if you want, I'm not going to rape you, but I know you're freezing!" I said. As he got under the blankets and laid on his side, less than a foot away staring at me.

"I'm so happy you said that, it's cold!" He said as he scooted closer to me, his body was now lightly touching mine, but he was on his back now, with his head turned toward me. "I'm really sorry for laughing at that stupid joke Leon made. It wasn't funny." He added.

"I understand why you did it. Not going to lie tho, it kind of hurt. Have you ever had someone you like a lot laugh at you?" Wait.. did I just say that? God I'm drunk too.

"Awh I'm sorry, next time I won't laugh, pinky dinky promise!" He said in a cute baby voice. Relief swept through my body when he didn't notice I had said I liked him.

We crossed pinkies and laid in silence for a few minutes.

"Hey Brycey. I'm drunk, okay?" Zane said while looking deep into my eyes.

"Okay Za.." He cut me off when his lips met mine. He kissed me slowly and put his hand on my cheek, kissing me more passionately. Butterflies filled my stomach. And his kiss was like an electric current soaring through my whole body. I opened my mouth and let his tongue explore, he kissed me deeply for what seemed like forever until he pulled away, and came back to peck me again on the lips..

"I couldn't have done that sober, but I have been wanting to do that for a long time, and you're a good kisser." He said as he kissed me again, wrapped his arm around me, and fell asleep. We cuddled with each other all night. And I was truly happy. To kiss the guy that I love.. love... did I love him? I don't know. But I know that was the most amazing kiss and being in his arms made me happier than anything in the world.

I stayed up until I saw the sun start to rise, soaking it all in, his arm around me, squeezing me, his body formed around mine, his slow breaths on the back of my neck. And I fell asleep the happiest guy in the world.

T.h.
Zane. Gay? It must be a dream. Find out next time.