I seem to drown in regret every day. I seem to miss you every single day. There's nothing that will ever take this regret off my shoulders, carved into my heart.
I seem to drown in my tears. Sobbing over the last things I have left of you. Of my big brother. Nothing will ever make this better.
I seem to drown while standing on solid ground. Clawing at memories that aren't enough. Trying to hold everything down.
I seem to drown in broken pieces of my heart.
I drown in the love I have for you, because there's no one to give it to anymore.
I love you, big brother.
