For you, I've painted violet skies
Written ten thousand unsent letters
As I lay on my back counting the stars
In a hazy state of getting "better."
I followed your tainted heart along the way
Hoping that you'd come back to me soon
But alas, you never came to rescue me
So I've got a few things to say:
This is where I leave you
Feeling beach sand beneath my feet
In saltwater waves that crash in my ears
I leave you with my sun-kissed skin
And balmy hands where I clench my fears.
I've counted stars so many times that I've begun to lose track
And have to start counting sheep to fall asleep again
But also you were gone when she passed away
When I had lost a friend.
You were sleeping with no troubles on your mind
As I was pacing within echoing walls
My school books lying unknowingly
On the floor, or never to be found.
I leave you in this heart of mine
This one that's shattered on my sleeve
In the misty grass of early mornings past
On the sidewalk with rainbow soap suds
And dusty colors of neon chalk.
I remember that aching feeling
The kind that consumes you completely
Like the reminder of being alone
And all the crying I did nightly
Over the skin that was violently sown.
I noticed all of the little things
The things that were seen as trivial
Like the way he used to make my heart dance
Memories that I keep under lock and key
How you used to whisper such special things to me
The repeated words that I pretend I can't remember, even now.
I leave you with my broken memories
With the saline that invaded emptily
Every hope and dream I shared relentlessly
Became something much too heavy to bear
Much like Atlas and his sky.
This is where I leave you:
I'm leaving you alone for countless hours
In a bed made of lilacs and white roses because I found them comforting in times of need
I'm clouding your vision in a hopeful manner
Though I was merely given the "short version"
Because the news was broken to me unevenly
When I was still the Dancing Queen.
I know I did much better
Better than what I had seen
All without you seeing it
More than I chose to believe
But this is where I'm leaving you:
In this great big dejected ocean
without "Miss diamond-in-the-rough" me
