bad memories

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2.1

Dear Jack, 

It feels like you're still here. Everywhere I look, everything I do, it reminds me of you. I hear you nag at me when I smoke my cigarette on my window sill. I smell your cologne when I lie in my bed. I think of the way you held my hips when I listen to the Arctic Monkeys. I feel your squeeze on my thighs when I get nervous. I feel your touch when I try to take relaxing showers. I hear your angelic voice when I listen to the music you used to sing. I remember the way you taught me to accept myself for the way I am. I remember the way you stole my sunglasses and the way you let me steal your clothes. I remember the way you slipped the promise ring on my finger for the first time. I remember how nervous you were the first time I officially met your parents. I remember how surprised you were when your friends accepted me. I remember how strong you acted whenever Charlie popped up. You always had it all under control, didn't you?

Most importantly, I remember the way you love me and the way I love you. Past, Present, Future tense. 

And of course, the pain of missing you will not have to be remembered. It will always reside in my heart. 

Love, Erica  

2.2

"Jack, I still can't believe you did this."  I said, looking around the venue.

"You said you wanted Arctic Monkeys concert tickets for your birthday." He smiled, clearly happy with my joy. 

"I was kidding! These things are expensive, I can't believe you actually got them." I smiled, turning in circles, trying to soak it all up. 

"Anything for you, baby girl." He smiled, just as the opening note of my favour song came on. I screamed along with the rest of the crowd. By the time we were at the chorus, I was basically crying of joy.  

"Do I wanna know?" I sang loudly, as Jack sang it softly in my ear. "If this feeling flows both ways." He wrapped his arms around my waist, giving me a boost of energy. "Sad to see you go." He rested his chin on my shoulder. "Was sorta hoping that you'd stay." He ran his hands under my shirt. "Baby, we both know." He planted a kiss on my neck. "That the nights are mainly made for things that you can't say tomorrow day." He turned his attention to my lips.

"I love you." He mumbled into the kiss. 

"Crawling back to you." Everyone sang, as I realized this is what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. Be surrounded by people I love, listening and appreciating good music, feeling a state of pure bliss. "Ever thought of calling when you've had a few?" He smiled at me, running his hands through my hair. "Cause I always do." A flash went off in the corner of my eye. "Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for someone new." A stranger showed me the picture she had token. Jack and I were gazing into each other's eyes. He was biting his lip, while I smiled. My hands were gripped onto his neck, and his on my hips. We were sweaty from all the dancing and excitement, yet somehow it gave off a pleasant vibe. I nodded to the girl in a genuinely thankful way. "Now I've thought it through." I know now that whatever happens between Jack and I, I did all I could to be forever happy with him. We both did our best. Now, we just have to see what destiny has in store for us. "Crawling back to you."

doo ya liiike it??? i have alot of chapters pre-written so expect loads of uploads :) let me know how you feel about what's going on and try to predict what's going to happen!!! also, idk if it was clear or not but Nate is MIA so yep

love you! qotd: when do you get out of school? i get out june 22nd :P