Silent Love

002.

- Thoedore Elsher - 

I hate it. 

I hate having to act like everything is fine.

Like it doesn't bother me.

Like he deserves to be there.

Like he deserves her.

I should be the one kissing her.

Not him.

I should be the one getting to call her mine.

Not him.

I should be the one getting to listen to her talk about her day.

Not him.

Getting to take her out on dates.

Getting to look at her without worrying if someone is watching. 

Getting to hold her on bad days.

Getting to wake up next to her.

Getting to fall asleep next to her.

Not him.

He does not deserve any of it. But he is the one kissing her, making her smile so brightly.

Not me.

He couldn't even say 'I missed you too', no all he said was 'mE tOo'.  He treats her horribly. He really thinks he is sneaky. Even a blind man could see how he looked at her.

Not Wren. 

There is something going on between him and Mirmia. Wren needs to open her eyes and stop being blinded by fake love.

I do not get what she sees in him. Not even just her, when we go out girls are falling to his feet. Don't get me wrong he isn't bad looking. But he's blonde, I mean I thought the only blonde guys she liked were Wesley and Aaron Warner.

She doesn't even like blue eyes. That girl will go on hour-long tangents on how much she loves brown eyes. Of course I listen, I might not if it wasn't for my eyes being brown.

"Who's shirt is this?" Leo asked slightly shifting his arm away from her shoulder.

No way he's scared she's cheating on him.

That girl doesn't know how to do that. Not even on harmless school assignments. No way in hell would she ever even think about cheating on Leo.

The only competition he has are the guys she reads about.

That's the funniest part. They are works of fiction.

"Oh, it's only Theodore's. I was cold at the airport and he gave it to me." Yeah, only Theodore's.

"Oh. Okay." Ain't no way he's mad over that. A simple flannel from her best friend because she was quite literally shaking.

She needs to open her eyes and realize she deserves better. She deserves someone who is there for her. Someone who doesn't cheat on her. Someone who loves her. Someone who will love her forever.

Someone who has liked her forever.

Someone who will love her on her hard days.

Leo is not that someone. 

But she thinks he is. She thinks he loves her. She thinks he will be there on bad days.

Her smile around him shows that.

God, why can't she smile like that for me?

"Theodore?" Shit, I zoned out again. Wes was slightly shaking my shoulders. I turn to see his face.