Is It Love?(BruhItsZach Fanfiction)

We Will Make It...Together

I remember that day almost like it was yesterday, Austin and I were together and he kissed my cheek, It was almost like I could feel his lips brush over my cheek just like the moment he did. I sat against the wall feeling so weak and unsure of what to do. I wanted my friend back, I want my parents back, I want my no worries life back.

"GOD WHY ME!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as the rain hit my window as if it might shatter any minute. I had to get back. I ran downstairs, grabbed my skateboard and started skating a little bit before I tumbled in the grass, crying harder and harder.

"I want my old life back, I want to not bottle all this up" I brought my knees up to my chest, it was still pouring rain and you could hear the faint rumble of the thunder as the storm was sure to get worse. I sobbed screaming at the sky as if it were supposed to answer back, 

"WHAT DID I DO?!"

I looked up for a moment noticing a car pull up, I sighed seeing a figure come closer and I crawled back, "Please go away whoever you are." The figure grabbed me and before I could react I saw Zach's face, "Come on, we need to get home you will get really sick." I pulled away,

"Just leave me here. I don't deserve you, I don't deserve to be loved, just go." He gave a confused look, "what happened? Why are you doing this? I love you and nobody can change that, NO ONE! Got that?" he yelled the last part and carried me to the car.

"What happened? I thought you were gonna be gone like an hour, not 4. Why were you crying and saying those things?" i breathed heavily

"Zach before i met you i had a best friend,Austin we were close we kind of kissed and he said that he liked me we spent that whole last week together i found a picture and it hit me Zach i have no parents no friend except Lyn which we rarely talk and i always ending up hurting you do you understand how much you have been their for me but i only bring you down how do you still love me i'm horrible look at me face it i'm no good for you"

we were both crying at this point "DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT i will always love you no matter i fell in love with you because of the fact you were you and you made me feel like i could talk to someone if anything you are good for me because you are what keeps me sane and... alive"

he whispered the last word he breathed in he was gonna tell me something you could see it in his eyes "before i met you and i was bullied for my ADHD and these stupid videos and broadcasts i cut too once i met you i stopped because it would only affect us look i love you Aryn i want a future with you to start a family with you but if you want to also then we have to work through these things together talk to each other OK"

i was shoked at both the things he said he cuts also and can see a future with me i nodded "ok"he kissed me it always feels like our first kiss.........Amazing!