Never leave

Chapter 5

We arrive around 4 pm and when he drops me to the hotel he hugs me and says "Yesterday I made a reservation at a very good restaurant in the area, so... pick you up at 8?" "Sure, see you then." I enter my room, unpack my luggage and put myself to sleep for a couple of hours because I am really tired and I want to be rested at tonight's date.

When I wake up, it's 6:30 so I have enough time to get ready. I knew that we might go on a date so I packed a little black dress, a pair of high-heeled shoes and a few accessories such as a pair of gold earrings and a thin silver bracelet. I do my make up, get dressed and wait for the phone to ring. I am not nervous or stressed anymore. The day I met him I thought I was going to faint, but here I am now, going on a date with him, feeling no pressure. I guess he just makes me feel safe, like he would never judge me. What I love most in a person is when they listen to me, when they try their best to understand my feelings and respect my needs. Bailey does all these things and I could never want more from a person. He is very mature and caring and I think that you should never settle for less. My phone rings. He tells me that he has arrived and I can come. I leave the hotel and see him. He looks gorgeous as always. He wears a white t-shirt with a light colored denim jacket on top, jeans of the same color as the jacket and a pair of white Nike sneakers

We say hello and hug. "Sarah, you look amazing, I knew you were beautiful but I didn't know you could be that beautiful." "Thank you! I love your outfit, you look great!" "The restaurant is pretty close we can walk there is that's ok" "Sure, let's go"

We head to the restaurant and as we walk and talk, he suddenly takes my hand. We don't stop talking so that we don't make it awkward. I feel like I am flying, his hand is so soft and warm.

When we arrive at the restaurant, we sit at our table which is next to the window. We order some food and something to drink. We chat as we wait. "So Sarah, tell me more about you, what do you like to do when you have free time?" "I love listening to music, especially your music, and I am not saying that to empress you, I really like it..." As I talk he interrupts me. "Do you like my songs because you relate to them or do you just like the sound of it?" "I don't relate to all of them but I do feel like some of your songs are written for me" "Which ones?" " 'Where it ends' for example" "May I ask why?" "Yes, it was this guy I used to date two years ago. We were in a relationship for 6 months when we first broke up. That period of time was great, we really did get along. He used to take me to a lot of dates where we used to have a great time. We would stay up late and talk and laugh, play games, thing like that. I felt love and understood. I never thought I would lose him. He ended things because he said he wanted space. I was really confused because I always made sure that he had time for himself and he never told me that I was tiring or something. It was very out of the blue and I was truly heartbroken because everything was great until he decided to leave. We didn't talk through that time that took 2 month. I told myself that I would never talk to him again, but it didn't end up like that. He came back to me and like a stupid girl, I gave him a second chance. Our relationship lasted for another 3 months after that but, sure, it wasn't the same. He started to be very possessive, and I do not understand why, like he is the one who left me in the first place. I wasn't allowed to do what I wanted, like wear what I like or stay with my friends for how long I wanted. Until I got sick of all of this bullshit and I said stop. After I broke up with him, I started to do the things I enjoyed and I then was the moment when I found out that I like arts, like drawing or painting. It took me a while to get over him, but the trauma is still there and I kind of find it hard to trust people." "Wow, I don't know what to say, I am very sorry you had to get through that, you didn't deserve any of that" "No one does..." "I am glad you managed to fix your trust issues, this is no easy thing" "I didn't, I am still having a hard time trusting people, and I am very anxious" "I think I can contradict you, I was kind of a stranger to you when we met last week and now you are on a date with me and you are staying alone in a hotel" "Actually you are right, but it is a different situation when it comes to you, I was your fan long before I met you, I kind of trusted you from the beginning." "You are the only one who truly knows how you felt but I can say that you really made some progress. First time you met me you were extremely shy, but in a cute way, and now you are here with me telling the most deep story of your life, takes some trust to do that" "I think you are right, now that I think about how fearful I was before, I am better now. But I still think it is different with you, you always made me feel safe around you" "I am glad to hear that because you really are a special girl who deserves good treatment" "And you an amazing person who deserves the best"

We eat our food, we pay the check and leave the restaurant. He takes me to the hotel and we hold hands until we arrive.

"I had a really good time, thank you for taking me to the restaurant!" "You are welcome, I had a great time as well. If you want we can see each other tomorrow and go for a walk to show you around" "I would love that!" We look into each others eyes and then he kisses me. It feels just as good as our first kiss, just as magical, just like I am dreaming.