Never leave

Chapter 8

It's 9am and I make my bad. I remember that Bailey is not home until 7pm so I guess I will just stay here, watching Netflix or something till he gets home. I make myself some toast and a coffee. I am scrolling on Instagram as I eat my breakfast and then I get dm. I don't recognise the account so I open it to see what it is. I find a text that says "Sorry girl, you lost him" and a picture with Bailey and girl kissing. I can see that he is wearing the Tesla shirt he got when we went shopping so that proves that the picture is not an old one. My eyes start to tear and my body fills with anger. I can't believe what I just saw. But the question that doesn't leave my head is how do people even know we are together? I don't remember him posting anything about us. Maybe this is what he usually does... he hooks up with any girl that he likes, brings her to his house and when he finds another-one, he just leaves her. I should have known, he is famous, a lot of girls like him, girls way more beautiful than me, why would he choose me? I felt so special and so loved around him, I thought it was something real, but of course I was wrong. I don't even know what to do, should I stay and wait for him, should I leave... I want to think that maybe it was a prank or something but I know it's not. However, I decide to stay and wait for him. I really want to hear his stupid excuse.

It's almost 7pm, the last hours were unbearable. I am sitting on the couch with my phone in my hand. I hear the door opening and I see him entering. I don't think I can even look at him without starting to cry, so I am starring at my phone. He says 'hi' and I respond with a quiet, mad one. He doesn't look too happy either. But why wouldn't he, he found another girl after all. Or maybe he is going to break up with me and he acts like he is sad to make me believe he actually cares about me. He sits on the couch near me. I still don't look at him. I just hear him saying "Look, I have something to tell you". I tell myself "Of course you do, you just cheated on me after you made me feel like I was the most important girl for you" I just nod and he continues "A girl kissed me today after I left the studio. I was heading home and she came to me. She asked for a picture and I said 'yes' but then, she kissed me out of the blue, took the picture of us kissing and ran...I hope you are not mad"

Ok, I didn't expect this. I don't really know how to react as I felt some pretty strong emotions today. But how do I know that his is telling the truth? I still have to tell him that I knew this happened "Today, I received the photo of you and that girl kissing. I got extremely mad because I thought you were cheating on me" "I completely understand you were mad but believe me, this is how it went. I hope you know that I would never do that. But, how did that girl know you are my girlfriend?" "I don't know, you tell me" "I didn't post anything about us. At least I don't remember posting. Let me check my history to make sure that's not how people found out about us. There is nothing on Instagram, nothing on TikTok, let's check snapchat" After he says that his face changes. "This is how they found out... Remember when we took a picture of us on our date to the restaurant, turns out I accidentally posted it. I am so sorry" I am so mad at this whole situation. It's not his fault he posted that picture of us accidentally, but I am still not sure if I should believe him about that girl kissing him or not. I am still overwhelmed by my feelings, I can not think straight . He looks at me, gets closer and says "Again, I am very sorry I made you go through all this shit, but you know I didn't want to, it's not my fault that girl kissed me." "I just had the worst day of my life, and I want to believe you are not lying..." "What do you mean you 'want to believe'? You know I love you. Or you just don't trust me at all, don't you?" "I don't know" I say quietly. He gets up madly "Well you can believe whatever you want, I am not lying" He leaves to his room slamming the door.

I start crying and go to my room as well. I lay in my bed like I am the saddest human alive. I never thought we would ever fight like this. I want to reflect on what happened but I am too overwhelmed so I close my eyes hoping to be able to get some rest. Fortunately I fall asleep but it doesn't last too long as I wake up around 5am. I got a few hours of sleep and I feel more calm now. I stand up and go near the window. I open it to get some fresh air. As I am starring at the flowers from the garden I start to think about last night. I was so mad at him, I had the right to be after I saw that picture but he came home and the first thing he did was to tell what happened without knowing that I know. If he wanted to hide it, he would have act like nothing happened. I know that fan girls can be crazy sometimes. Maybe that was that girl's plan, to make us fight. Perhaps she is jealous on our relationship.

All he wanted to do was to prevent a fight, but I was too mad to see that. And it is not his fault after all. I am sure that he was not lying. I am more mad at myself now because if I understood this last night nothing would have happened. I know I need to apologise but I have to wait until he wakes up. I close the window as I hear something from downstairs. I think is Bailey. Why isn't he sleeping?

I go to the living room and I see him sitting on the couch drinking coffee. His phone is on the table, he is just zooming out. I know he hears me walking down the stairs but he doesn't turn his head to see me. I sit next to him. I don't look at him, I just say "You could not sleep either?" He replies quietly "No, of course I couldn't" "I just wanted to say that I am sorry. I should have believed you. It's not your fault we had that fight, it's my fault" He puts the cup on the table and faces me "I accept your apology. I understand you were mad, but it really hurt me when you said you didn't know if you trust me. I don't think I ever did something to you to make you feel like I am not loyal or that I don't care about you" "I am so sorry, you are right, you always treated me amazing, you don't deserve to feel like this, I am sorry" My eyes start to tear, so does his. He comes closer and hugs me. "Bailey, I do trust you, I don't want you to have doubts about it" "I know, I don't" I look into his eyes and say "So, we are good?" He kisses my forehead "Yes, we are good"

I am not happy this happened, but we are in a relationship after all, things like this happen but we need to learn how to handle them.