𝐖𝐡𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞? - 𝐀𝐧 𝐀𝐥𝐞𝐱 𝐓𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 ♡︎

𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 ♡︎

This takes place 2011 so you can imagine how Bae looks and how old he is 😍😍
Since yk he's an old grandpa now xoxo

TW: mental health, depression and SH

After finishing college with the A-levels i needed and just having my 18th birthday everything was supposed to be going okay but my anxiety and depression made sure i kept myself in check and didn't have too much fun.

On a lighter note, my best friend and i both got accepted into our dream university and we start this September (Cambridge). We are both so excited but honestly whenever i think about it i can't help but feel nauseous and feel faint. Public scenes aren't really my place, not since my ex-boyfriend Miles. He cheated on me and mentally abused me telling me i was getting to fat for him and too ugly which obviously took an emotional tole on me and i haven't been the same since . That was just over a year ago now and i can't think of anything worse than getting in a relationship. i hate boys.

Oh i nearly forgot my names Kate Webster. At my old school i was fairly known ,not popular ,no way but i was liked by the majority of people and i got along with almost everyone. It was strange living in my best friends shadow really but i was okay with it because she deserved it more than me. She's funnier, prettier, just better in general and that's okay it's not hard to be prettier than me and nicer than me. Like if she were here right now she'd be shouting at me to stop thinking like that and i need to cheer up. Be happy like how i was before. Oh how i wish it was that easy.

This year ,hopefully, will be different, and hopefully i can get over this anxiety. it's the worst. Same with the depression , i go through periods without eating or sleep and sometimes i over eat and over sleep. It's one big mess, I'm a big mess. Sometimes it resorts to doing bad things to myself.. really bad things. But no one knows about that not even my best friend. But with a new start comes new beginnings right?

Well how right was i..?