deeper than cuts | stu m. & billy l. | f! reader

『 8 ⭒』

MAY 7TH 1996

it had been a few months since the 'woodsboro massacre'. i couldn't set foot anywhere without eyes on randy and i. i just kept my head down and the only person i could speak to was randy. 

just one more period y/n. just one more. you can do it.

i couldn't. i couldn't be at my locker for too long without looking over at stu's. i couldn't walk through the halls without thinking about my sister. i couldn't go anywhere without seeing sidney's blood spill all over the ground. 

when i got home, i would scream and cry into my pillow until i couldn't breath. the only person who understood my pain was randy. so when my last class was over i ran to where randy said he would meet me. 

randy and i had planned to go to ohio together and start fresh at windsor college. "y/n!" randys eyes lit up when he saw me. he pulled me into a tight hug. "hi rand." i looked up to him with a smile as i buried my face in his chest.

"ready to go home? i have some movies for us." he rubbed circles on my back. i nodded and he kissed my head as we walked to his car. i got in the passenger seat and clicked in my seatbelt. he did the same and drove off. i rested my hand next to the cupholders and he held it, in show of concern. 

when we arrived at my house randy let my mom know we were home before we headed upstairs. when he closed my door i flopped down on my bed and groaned into my pillow. he laid down next to me and i cuddled up next to him. 

his hand held my head to his chest and the other one placed on my back. i start to sob for absolutely no reason, but randy still held me and didn't let go. i look up at him with red puffy eyes. he was already looking down at me. i give him a small smile. "randy, im so thankful to you." i close my eyes to peck his cheek and i guess he did the same. 

we didn't look where our faces were heading to. when i felt the feeling of his lips on mine my stomach felt warm and fuzzy. i opened my eyes, "i- im so sorry. i didn't mean to-" he cut me off by placing his lips on mine again. but this time, intentionally. 

i kissed him back. his hand gripped my ass while the other rested on my cheek. i throw one of my legs around his waist and he breaks the kiss. i flutter my eyes open and meet his. i smile and he does the same. "i really like you y/n." he didn't look away. 

my smile stuck on my face, "i really like you too randy." i say before leaning in again. i knew i could never love someone as much as i loved stu, but i could try. right?

he smiled into the kiss. 

i really like him. but i know im not ready to love him. i can't yet, my heart isn't ready to completely move on from stu. it sounds so fucking bad. i should hate him, but i don't. i can't. 

word count: 574

a/n: this was a short chapter so u guys r up to date and not confused in the sequel! the next few chapters will be memories of billy and stu. (mostly stu bc you loved him more than anyone.) love u!!