Arackniss knew how his older sibling took time and care for him no matter what and protected him from their father and mother punishment place on him but it would've been a bit lessons that they were going to give him for disobeying their parents even though he himself got in trouble when his older sibling wasn't home especially. When he did get punished by his parents he didn't get it as harsh as their sibling and when his older sibling got punished and protected them from harsher payments that he did. Arackniss always looked up to their sibling since he was little and throught his pre-teen years even when their sibling would protect them from bullies and people actions. Arackniss just knew how cold his older sibling can become when people push them to their very limits and he rather not face that part of them even with the smile on their face. He just wishes he would have made an effort to make their sibling proud of him and just make a name out himself but he didn't and went the same way his father went. As he look through the fun times he had with them and how they taught him many different things to learn and understand the best way they could to him since he had somewhat of hard time understanding what he needed to know at his age but he was glad that their sibling was carrying for him even in his tough times when he was barely an adult. He understood what their sibling always said to him that they were not always going to be there or won't be able to because they also had problems to fix. Arackniss always had a strong bond with his older sibling and a little bit with his twin siblings when they were not bothering him or laughing about his height or talking about it other than that he was somewhat nice to the twins when he felt like it or when he felt bad. He knows that he won't ever go where his eldest siblings were going since they were the oddball and black sheep of the family yet somehow he was worried for them to stay with the shitty family and not just leave the family. Arckniss was surprised when their grandma liked their older sibling more than the rest of the family and how grandma just said stuff like "oh my cute angel!" " my sweety" "don't you just love grandma" "bye grandma loves you". He would alway find it funny and a little bittersweet with bonds with their grandma when the family came to her house since she always wanted to see how their grandchild is doing and also to see how the family always been doing or what they do since she always knows how his father is with them. Arackniss always spent time with their siblings or when all of them came to have family time just to have fun and enjoy the outside wilderness. He knows that he doesn't love his parents or his youngest siblings but he definitely loves his older sibling since they were always there for him and how he got selfish about sharing them with his twins sibling when they also wanted to spent time together all of them would get into a fight on who gets to spend time with their oldest sibling but anytime they saw their eldest sibling walking alone or just make new food they would join their sibling. Anytime he looks back when he was alive he was happy that he had memories of his eldest sibling for all time they didn't give up on him or gave up on the family even if they left the family at very end of their life time before they all had died and left their older sibling alone but with some money to help them. Arackniss just wishes that he could just be able to see their older sibling one last time and apologize to them and just enjoy one last time with them. He knows they would be proud of him no matter what he did, at least he was fine and well that all that would matter to their older sibling he knew they didn't care about his job but only him and his well being. He would ever be thankful for having them as their siblings even though he doesn't express his true feelings but he knows they can read him like a book to tell what he wants to say. The last time he talked to them was when it was his last birthday before dying and saying their last words to them.
