Life isn't always fair.
It never was.
In a life that is not always made from bed of roses, how will they be able to withstand the ever changing circumstances without breaking each other's hearts?
She was forced to pay the debt she did not owe.
He wa...
"I didn't know it was possible to suffer the weight of forever in a moment.. but that was how it felt looking at you for the last time" -Whitney Hanson
*** September 23, 2014- One week after Irene's Birthday
GREGGY's POV:
If I could.. I would erase all the memories of the last week in my mind. It was awful and traumatizing! When they placed Irene in a stretcher, when half of her body was covered in blood, when I saw how Ninang's face was full of worry, when I held my helpless mother as she collapsed to the floor of the emergency room, I thought my life was over.
They injected medicines directly to Irene's veins to stop the bleeding. Those hours of waiting until I got to see her again were some of the worst hours of my life. Not only that we were on the brink of losing our baby.. but I almost lost my wife too.
Ninang called me inside the examination room. Irene is still unconscious with IV drips connected to her. I wiped the tears that I was trying to hold on to.
'It's not your fault, Greggy.' "Ninang.. isinama ko pa kasi sa office ehh. Countless times, she told me she was tired, I didn't listen!" 'Low lying talaga ang placenta ni Irene. Bleeding are common sa mga ganito na situation though of course, we try to avoid them as much as we can. I would require Irene to be on a bed rest ha? Until matapos nya ang first trimester nya. Also, no strenuous activity- meaning.. no sex.'
"Okay Ninang. When will she wake up?" 'Let her rest muna. She will when her body is ready. For now, let's check on little Peanut muna.. okay?'
I sat beside Irene while I watched Ninang open up the monitor of the ultrasound machine. That was Irene's first abdominal ultrasound but she's not even awake to witness it.
Even in her unconscious state, my wife was so beautiful. I took her free hand because that somehow calmed my heart.
What I saw in the monitor was one of the most surreal moments of my life. There.. that grainy little image of what's inside my wife's tummy, was the piece carved out from me and her.
That's our little Peanut, right there! I record everything on my phone, I do not want Irene to miss out on anything.
That very brief period of time cemented my fear. The one I have been trying to fight since I knew of Irene's pregnancy.
My soul is too dark for Irene and our baby. They're too precious and fragile and I don't deserve them.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
*** Irene has to stay at the hospital for five days. She was discharged two days ago and she's okay, she's doing well. Except for the painful part of her missing her oath taking.
I'm trying to coordinate with the board. I wanted her to do that. She has worked so hard to become a doctor. She deserves to take her oath.
Also, her best friends visited her yesterday. It was such a relief because I worry that she might get bored just by staying mostly inside our bedroom, doing nothing.
