Random love scenarios.

Loneliness

I couldn't get him out of my head. The lonely areas of my heart felt filled when I stood by him, the times where I was treated as an outcast faded into a distant nightmare that had no chance of reaching me. I fell backwards; hitting the bed as it absorbed my impact. My mind didn't register any pain or impact and just allowed me to feel like I was flying just as fast as the thoughts in my head. When my brain finally hitting the bed I was overcome by a sense of security within the soft mattress. It was slightly warm. Like a human body, like his body. My brain went dull as the only thing I could think of were the times we spent together.

His dark brown hair, long enough to cover his ice cold eyes yet never doing so. His soft hands running down my shoulders; down my chest. I was stuck in his trance where he wouldn't let me go. His way of just telling light jokes about anything hypnotised me into believing that everything was alright no matter how bad it really was. I freed myself from his broad arms and latched onto him. My arms snaking round his neck as my head fell against his shoulder. He chuckled.

That laugh. The one that had comforted me for the last three years. And the one that I had wanted to hear every day. My face contorted slightly beginning to curve my lips towards my ears as I hugged him even more tightly. His head lent against mine trapping me on top of him. I didn't mind. His chest felt soft against mine. His grey hoodie covering the back of his head and neck. I pouted slightly. Disappointed that I couldn't kiss his neck as I was stuck here against his warm body slowly falling asleep.

By the time I awoke, I was sprawled across my boyfriend's body his face next to mine on his chest. Our lips far too close for me not to do what I did. I moved forward slightly, and covered the 5cm gap between our mouths and pressed gently against them. I was met with a rush of bliss that skyrocketed my blood pressure and sent my mind into different universes as they struggled to figure out what would happen next. I instantly felt a wave of guilt and tried to pull away from the kiss, I couldn't. He had wrapped his arms around me and returned the slight pressure I put on his lips. Another place had an amount of pressure as I felt his massive erection pressing into my legs as I stood there bewildered on what to to do next. He didn't seem to mind. He just enjoyed the kiss and forgot about anything else.

I copied.

Whatever else happened that night I will never remember. But when I woke up the next day, I was unable to walk easily and was sweating like crazy.

I love this boy. But how much can I love him?