❝I want to hold you close,
skin on skin and
let our heartbeats
have a coversation❞
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JEON JUNGKOOK × [F!] READER AU
CONTAINS MATURE & EXPLICIT CONTENT (🔞)
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It's been a few days or maybe a few weeks... or maybe I was wrong and it has been almost a month since I spoke to him.
Jungkook has been sort of avoiding me since the "incident" at the shower and i also didn't make any effort to try to talk to him because
The last time I did, I ended up getting too awkward and tongue tied to even talk to him. It was getting kind of weird just staring at him while my palms were getting sweaty and I tried to think of the best possible way to bring up the incident but I failed.
And I gave up. Hoping he'd be the one to approach this time without making things awkward, cause that's how Jungkook is.
But it doesn't mean we completely started ignoring each other, there was "hi" "hello" or "doing well" at the art class or when we used to bump into each other.
He even started showering the earliest to avoid bumping into me, Ugh such a jerk
Life was great now.
There was no one to make me laugh or angry. I could just be at peace
or I thought so.
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The last time I checked it was 12:00 pm and the visiting hours were open. Many new faces had come and visited their loved ones or friends here while I just stayed there.
Honestly my hope had died that someone would visit me since the last day the lawyer visited me.
"You're a disgrace to that family, don't ever think of stepping inside that house ever. The doors of the Seo Mansion are now closed for you. For them you're dead"
"Here" he shoved the papers in front of me.
"Sign these papers and we're done here. Now it's up to you what you'll do after you get out of here do not contact them ever again or else you'll be penalized according to our agreement"
Funny you thought. The first born, and now she would have to pay a price in order to even step inside her own house.
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You turned the shower off and scrunch your hair with your hands as you let out a soft sigh.
"Finally" You thought as you washed your hair after weeks as you managed to save money up for getting a new shampoo through the office.
Pulling the towel down to your body and wrapping it around, you spun back only to be surprised and let out a gasp.
You held your towel tighter and placed a hand on your chest as you left out a poof. "You scared me"
There Jungkook stood staring at you. His hair has grown relatively longer covering half of his face.
"Why are u staring at me like that, it's scaring me" But he didn't budge. He kept fidgeting with his fingers looking down.
You sighed in frustration and pushed past him, when he caught your wrist and pulled you closer to him.
Your face against his chest, he caught your face with his hand and made you both eye to eye.
His thumb grazed your cheek as he breathed out slightly. You caught a sniff of mild mint and wood, which means he just finished shaving.
"I'm getting released tomorrow" He said as his thumb kept stroking your cheek.
You went blank for a second, registering his words for a second. "What?"
"My bail. I got it early. I guess dad did mean when he said he'll get the topmost lawyer in the world" He chuckled lightly.
But you weren't in the mood for jokes. Your heart sank down deep and the food from earlier churned in your stomach as an uneasy feeling took over you. He was leaving. Like going. You had to be alone.
It wasn't a matter of being alone. You had been pretty much alone this whole time here but somehow, his departure was making you undeniably sad and lonely. It's like a piece of your sanity went with him.
"You're not joking right? I mean if this is how you want to take revenge for that thing i said, I m sorry okay but this isn't funny" You said pushing him slightly.
But he coiled a hand around your waist bringing you close to him, body to body. "Please Love, Don't make this harder than it is. I-"
"No no. No jungkook. You... You don't get it. You're leaving tomorrow and you're telling me a day before that, this is even more worse than sicheng did!" I cut him off mid sentence as tears were building up in my eyes.
"Please baby please I..I just don't know, okay. I should've told you. Now please let me just hold you like this please" He said as his voice broke at the end of the sentence.
He pressed his forehead against mine, our body close to each other. Skin on skin. He sneaked around my waist and pulled me any closer if that's possible. I loved the way his body would radiate this warmness, I couldn't explain it. As if he was home. He felt warm and I just wanted to stay like that, forget about everything, this misery, the place we were in, what's gonna happen tomorrow if he's leaving or not.
He's Leaving.
The words had a big impact on me, a wave of realization and sadness hit me and soon I found tears building up in my eyes and I was sobbing.
I closed my eyes as I let the tears roll down my cheeks. I felt his fingers wiping the tears and telling me not to cry but everything seemed absurd and out of place. I had to let everything out.
"Everything's just so stupid rn" I said, followed by a sad laugh. "SO stupid.." My voice broke at the end of the sentence as I nuzzled my face in his chest trying to muffle my sobs.
It was pathetic how i was crying right now. How miserable I might look at him crying when he possibly thought me of nothing. It took everything in me not to punch him in the face or probably scratch his beautiful face with my nails.
" Look at me please" He said as he grazed my cheek with his thumb. I shaked my head knowing damn well I'll start sobbing more if I saw him again.
"Look up y/n" He said but now in a more commanding voice. I looked up to see his glistening eyes full of tears as some rolled down his cheek.
"Please don't cry" I said as I wiped his tears "We'll meet right? Outside? Please?" I pleaded but he didn't reply and just kept looking at me.
"Tell me jungkook please reply i..think i am going crazy right n-"
And he shut me up by pressing his lips softly to mine. I closed my eyes wanting to savor the moment and stood like that.
His kisses were soft, sweet vanilla at first and then with a swift graduation of intensity that made me cling onto him more. His mouth was parting my shaking ones, sending wild tremors down my nerves and making me feel things that I didn't know I was capable of feeling.
And before I knew it, I gave in and started kissing him back.
