The Last Deadwolf

Chapter 61

"Is everything okay", I hear Falk's voice. I turn to him but can't see him due to the tears that are blocking my sight. "Yes..I'm fine", I say wiping away the tears. He walks up to me and sits next to me on the bed. "What happened? I heard you talking to someone", he says laying his hand on my leg but I push it off of me. "Leave me alone Falk, I'm doing fine on my own", I tell him. "Stop doing this to yourself Deadlive", he says trying to make eye contact but I ignore him. "You always push away everyone who wants to help you." I can't bear anyone betraying me like Klaus did , we may have not been so close but it hurt like a bitch. And I have a feeling that Falk is going to be a case like him but only worse and I want to avoid that heartbreak. I have been telling myself that people can care about me because Hades started to care but now, I have realized the painful truth. No one could love a Deadwolf and it has been proven many times before and not only in my life.

"I don't trust you", I tell him and he seems to be startled about it. "Many people seem to forget that I actually used to be a human before I turned into a Deadwolf. That's why I don't trust the soulmate bond, I don't know you but my senses are telling me you never would harm me but I do not know that. You're a Damned Soul after all just like I am a Deadwolf and would kill anyone. The bond doesn't make us not kill each other and many people do not know that like I didn't knew that when I met Klaus. I had to kill him and it broke something inside me which can never be restored and I don't want to feel that ever again. You're constantly tense and seem to be on your guard all the time. Why were you even following me for a period of time?"

"I know that you have reasons enough to not trust me. But I do have a past too ,remember? Just like you have things you don't wanna talk about I have things as well. But if I were to betray you I would've already done it and you know that's the truth", he says and I make eye contact with him. The butterflies in my stomach are flying around and I'm having a tingling sensation in my body. "I promise you Deadlive, I would never dare to hurt you". He wipes away a tear from my face. We're just millimeters away from each other. I can almost feel his lips on mine which makes my breath uneasy. My body is longing for his touch and Falk seemed to notice because he put his hand on my cheek and I can feel myself burn up. After what seemed like ages I feel his soft lips on mine and I go along in the kiss which becomes lusty fast.

His hands leave a trail all over my body and then I feel my fangs come out ready to mark Falk as my soulmate but I am not ready yet.

Morning

After I took a shower I put on new clothes and my mask. Things got pretty steamy between me and Falk last night. I honestly never thought I'd go through that experience but this isn't going to happen twice. It's time I made an end to this life and the mistakes from Reagan and Hades.

While I was in hell last time I noticed that there is another portal in hell hidden from normal sight but if you use your wolf eyes to see you can see a portal next to the one from hell. Hades must've tried hiding it from me.

I look at Falk who's still asleep. Who knows how we might have turned out if it weren't for my shitty life.

......

I'm standing before the portal. I've done all this work thinking I was going to be rewarded at the end with a peaceful dead. But it was all a lie told by my father and mother just so i could be there puppet.

"Deadlive", I hear Hades voice. I'm getting tears of hate in my eyes. Why can't he just let me do this without annoying me all the time, I'm not going to change my mind. There's no way that I will. I've been wanting this for a very long time I'm not just going to give up on this. And he actually should let me do this since it is his fault that I'm having this life. 

"Deadlive please, I'm begging you! Don't do this. With killing Reagan nothing is going to change for you trust me!"  All this talk and just so I don't kill the mate that despises him, unbelievable. "Don't let your selfishness take away the most precious thing I have in my life!" I turn around and look him in the eyes with disgrace. "My selfishness? I've been there helping others almost my entire life and now I want one thing for myself and I'm the one that's being selfish?! Reagan isn't the most precious thing in your life Hades, she's the most toxic thing in your life", I tell him. "And you're not going to change my mind doing this so you better leave me alone." 

I stepped through the portal as he was saying something. In a few minutes I won't need to hear anything from him again nor anyone else for that matter. 

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"Don't you think it's selfish wanting to kill me just because you have had enough of life", Reagan says standing at a lake doing weird stuff. "You're really going to talk about selfishness now?  You made me  so you can  undo your mistakes", I tell her frustrated. "If I had another solution back then I would've used it, Deadlive. But I  unfortunately didn't have that option. Saving the Supernatural was more important that your life", she says and I scoff. "The Supernatural wasn't a thing back then! You should've destroyed it the moment it was made!" 

"Do you really want to know why we made you? The true reason why you're in so much pain everyday and why you need to live forever", she asks then. She's wasting time on this stupid conversation to avoid what's about to come. "If you're going to tell the truth now because I would change my mind it won't work", I warn her. "The Supernatural world was going to fall apart because it existed out of nothing. So when you were born we made you the center of the Supernatural. That is why you are immortal. The reason you're in pain is because the Supernatural world is dying. So if you kill me right now, you'll be in even more pain because you killed something Supernatural". 

I look astonished at her, at first thinking that this is yet another story she has made so I don't kill her but I sense that it is the very painful hard truth. So there is no way to make an end to this miserable life unless I somehow fix the Supernatural? All this time Hades knew this and he didn't tell me anything.. 

She looks at me with a big grin on her face and it makes me the most furious I have ever been in my whole life. I used to think it was the moment I found out that Fenrir tried to kill me and that my mother killed me when  I was little but that's nothing compared to this. 

"Hard to realize that you have been killing yourself all this time isn't", she says then. "You're the one making yourself miserable and in pain and now there's nothing you can do about it besides not killing people anymore including me". 

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Once I went back through the portal I looked at Hades who sat there on his knees. I didn't kill her, not because I have pity for her but because I don't want to be in any more pain. I have to live with this for the rest of my life, I won't be able to bear any more pain than I have right now. 

Every single parent figure I have had has lied to me about almost everything in my life and they all don't care. The only thing they care about is their own shitty lives. Always complaining about what they had to go through and not for once they thought about how it is living my life except for Falk. He's in the same state as me, forever in pain and doomed to live forever.