The Last Deadwolf

Chapter 33

Raum has been stressing a lot ever since there has been declared war between Noah and him and we've passed a week now. Nothing has happened yet, both camps are plotting. 

When we were talking about Phyllon I read from Noah's mind that the reason they don't get Phyllon killed is because Luna has plans with him and more than that I don't know. She must have made some plan to annoy me, or kill me. 

"So the West side of Noah's pack is vulnerable right now", Raum asks  Shaddix and Henry. "Yes, and it's one of the places that has a great sight on Noah's pack as well", Henry informs. 

They're looking at a map from Noah's territory, searching for safe ways in so they can eliminate Phyllon or Noah without having to be seen by everyone.
Raum wants to try not to kill any of the pack members, especially women and children. They can't help it that their husband is a werewolf and doesn't see the red flags of Noah and Phyllon.

My boss Michael has informed me that if I don't show up for work next time that I'll be fired. He has been getting complaints from his brother, the owner of the building.

Unfortunately I don't think I'll succeed in it, with everything going on here. It's like nothing good ever lasts with me. 

"That's when Deadlive is going to use her power", I hear Raum saying and I look with raised eyebrows at him. "You can easily kill both Phyllon and Noah from that point, then we don't have to go and kill other people." 

"And I will have to pay the price from Nature, sounds like a perfect plan", I say sarcastically. Everyone sighs annoyed. 

"Now's not the time to be selfish Deadlive", Henry says and I'm getting pissed off by them. 

I will have to live with it, my power will be out of control for the rest of my life and I will be in more pain. They are the ones being selfish, they want me to fix their problem like I'm some bioweapon of theirs! I have every right to be selfish right now because I have always looked out for them and killed for them, I died for them! Even though I didn't mean to. 

"Don't you think that after everything I have done for all of you that I deserve to be selfish right now", I ask them pissed off. 

"Why do you wanna make this harder than it already is", Raum asks raising his voice against me. 

"Because life is hard, you can't escape it. Nothing is ever easy and you have to work for what you want, so don't go and try to use me as a bioweapon like I have no rights because you're asking it to the wrong person", I growl as I'm stepping closer to him. 

"Everyone feared you, because you have very strict rules for the packs on your territory and have a very big pack and not to forget that no one has ever seen any enemy that you have ever had", I say. "And now suddenly you are not that Alpha anymore, and because of what? Because you have met the perfect murder-machine to protect your pack?" 

I feel a big amount of guilt building up in Raum. 

"I guess it was just an image you were holding up, and I won't be the first person to notice this. Other Alpha's will start noticing and then what are you going to do when everyone wants to challenge you? Do what my father did and kill everyone who has ever doubted him?"

"I am not your father", he says furiously by my words. "The first plan my dad had to kill his parents was to use me as a weapon", I tell him. "Keep on going and you'll be in a grave next to him." 

I leave the pack house and go back to my house. 

Helping him was a mistake that I will never make again. I should've stuck to my plan and ignored everything happening around me. 

But I have a feeling that Hades is planning on sending Luna to me, she is probably one of the main problems I am going to have in a short time. Her motivation will be to avenge Evelyn and Benjamin and it wouldn't surprise me that she would have her own army to come around to annoy the fuck out of me until it drives me to suicide again. 

I gotta find some way to destroy Hades his plans , but I don't know how to be smarter than him. I can't change the way that Luna is acting, nor how Noah or Raum acts but Hades can. He wants me to kill him so that my problem is gone but that will give me the problem of having no control. So the only option might be changing their minds, which is not an easy thing to do even though I am  a Deadwolf. I can send thoughts into their heads but I can't make them believe them.

The main thing to do is to just kill Hades, but then Hell doesn't have a leader anymore and rebellious souls would break out and bring chaos to the world. 

Or I just keep on running away for the rest of my life. 

Sometimes I just wanna kill everyone on this planet, just to make things easier for me. But because I am a creature of Nature I will die because of the amount of pain I will have and then we'll start all over again. 

There's no escape to this Hell.. even dying isn't an option. 

Whoever made the Deadwolves is a very sadistic person who loves to see pain and misery. We always thought that dying would relieve us of all the pain, and surprise-surprise it was all one big joke. We just have a more painful life and the cycle never stops.. 

Hey everyone who is reading this book! Thank you all for reading this book I really appreciate it, and I hope you're liking the story so far!