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"I'm not... Hungry..?"

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING.

THIS WILL INCLUDE THE FOLLOWING:

- Slight Eating Disorder.

- Descriptive details on body weight.

- Medicine.

IF YOU GET UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THE MENTIONED, PLEASE LEAVE THIS CHAPTER.

And keep in mind, this is me dealing with my issues with my hunger.

And do not worry, I myself am completely fine.  It's unfortunately a side effect of my medicine, but I've been trying my very best to regulate it so that I don't end up in a worse state.

Please read with caution.

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"Would you like something from McDonald's, Milo?"

Huh.?

Oh, that's right, me and my family were getting something to eat while we were on the road back home, and we all agreed on getting McDonald's.

"Uh, yeah."

"Chicken nuggets and fries?"

"Yeah."

My dad had ordered our food, and picked it up.

I receive my chicken nuggets and fries, and I begin to eat them.

They were tasty.

Though, only after eating 3 chicken nuggets and barely any of the fries, I wasn't hungry anymore.

I wanted to eat more, but I could bring myself to.

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We got back home and curious, I weighed myself.

My face became full of worry and concern.

92.4 lbs...

Typically for a 17 year old, who's 5 ft and has the body of a girl, their weight should be from 97 to 127 lbs.

'I'm... underweight..?'

I couldn't believe it.

How could I have let myself become this underweight?

I've been snacking on Goldfish and other things, so how could I have...

Wait...

My medicine..

Specifically my ADHD medicine..

That's the reason behind it.

A side effect of it is a lack of appitite, meaning I don't always get hungry.

God...

I looked at myself in a mirror.

I could see my rib cage.  My arms as thin as a stick.  My hip bone being noticable.

I was upset at the sight of my own body being like this.

Was I... Starving myself..?

No, I've never feared of being too heavy, I would still be happy if I was even slightly over weight.

But..

I am.. scared.. to say the least..

Not of having more weight, but of my outcome if I didn't get this sorted out.

Would I be so underweight that I'd pass out occasonally?  Would I be seen as a freak for being so thin?

Out of my family, I am the tiniest and thinnest of them.  My brother, mum, and dad being overweight.  When next to them, I feel like I don't fit in.

I feel like, people would think that *I'm* being starved by my own family.

I have been getting dirty looks from people recently.

Was that really the case?

Did people really think I was being starved?

Oh no..

I really hope not..