My Wonder//-Charles Leclerc

Chapter eight - I didn't mean it though

Amelia Lémieux

Monday (in the morning)

I still can't get over the fact of what happened yesterday. I am laying in bed and just want to die. My body hurts. My head hurts. My life is useless. I keep having that dream. That dream I used to have when IT happened. Sara, my old friend, keeps telling me, Ace, I can't handle it anymore.

Everybody in my old friend group had a different name for me, and those names keep appearing in my dreams. Sara always called me Ace, cause she knew how much racing meant to me, she said, you are the Bunny Ace. Bunny stands for speed. Daniel, oh Daniel, he was the Playboy, he called me Aims or Pie, I still don't know why Pie, but it was always adorable. Isa calls me Aims too. She reminds me of Daniel, just less of the Playboy behavior. And-

"Why!" I yell. My alarm suddenly rang. It is 05:30, but the sun is up. How?

I look at my phone and see that it's 8 am. Shit! I had training at 7. Well, I'm already late, no reason to try getting there.

It took a minute to realize that I was wearing my pjs and that my room was cleaned and my window was open. I never fucking open my window. The fresh wind travels through my room. What is going on? I was drunk, yes, but not so drunk to know that I didn't clean my room and put my pjs on! I get up and walk towards my kitchen. Something I need is Dads anti drunk drink. Originally, it was created by my grandmother. She had a huge Alcohol addiction, like my Dad, and probably like me. My siblings, of course, are so perfect that they don't have a problem with drinking. The reason why I enjoy drinking is that at one point, it makes you go numb. Every single part of your body turns numb. It is a unique feeling.

I open my fridge searching for the stuff I need. Peppermint, limes, eggs, olives, I hate olives so much, they're disgusting. The only reason I have them in my fridge is Elise. Elise! If she arrived safely home! I hope so.
I need to check her room.

,,Heyyy! Yesterday was tough huh? Well, I am shopping! Surprise! Don't be mad that I'm without you, but I heard of a really nice shop with the best, basically the sexiest outfits and I need to go there. I was told that in the afternoon a lot of people buy everything, so I'm getting there early. You were like sooooo drunk, Amy! I was afraid to wake you up.
Well, call me after you read this and tell me what's going on with that hot Dutch racer!
CU soon!
Love Elise<3"

She wrote on a sticky note. The sticky note sticks on the door to her bedroom.
I can't believe she went there without me! She didn't even tell me the shops name!
Hot Dutch racer? Omg, Max! How can she ask me that. And what exactly happened when Max gave me a ride home? I thought I knew what happened last night, but everything seems to be blurred. Oh no.

,,Hey Ly! Open the door. Now!" Felix knocks aggressively at my suite door. What does he want? I don't want to talk to him, I need to finish my anti drunk drink. Including he told me he loves me! Why does he love me? Oh dear. How long has he loved me? What if he loved me all those years and couldn't date other people. I might have destroyed his love life without knowing.

Now I stand on front of the front door, my forehead leans at the door. I feel the wind coming in through my windows in my neck. How the fuck is every window open! I don't open the windows, just like Elise. Elise only opens the windows when I am not there, cause it fucking annoys me. She couldn't have let them open, could she?