I'm sorry...I love you ||myg

I wish you could listen...

I wish things could have been different....

I observe from the corner of the couch as the front door beeps notifying me that my fiancé is home. He has been out most of the day and only coming back at 2 am in the morning making me extremely concerned but I know I am not in the right place to say anything.

My eyes stay focused on the entrance as I feel my heart squeeze at the sight of him stumbling inside with his eyes drooping.

He is drunk again...

I sigh frowning as he drops his bag and struggles to toe off his shoes which he eventually does. He pauses for a second as he stands still at the entrance and his eyes open a bit more to look around the living room. The room is dimly lit but still light enough to be able to see everything and move around.

I make eye-contact but as usual he just looks away and lets out a deep sigh before walking towards the couch and falling down face first with a groan.

"Seriously Yoongi...you need to stop doing this to yourself" I speak softly in the quiet room but I get no response.

"Yoongi..."

"Why...why Mina why did you hurt me like this....can't you see I needed you but you..." I bite down on the inside of my cheek as I hear his slurred words before I hear the soft sound of his cries.

"I still love you..." He mumbles and I stand up from the couch before ealking towards him and sitting on the ground next to him. A small smile forms on my lips as I see the rising and falling of his chest get more even as he falls asleep.

"My love....at this point you are only hurting yourself, please stop hurting yourself because of me" I whisper as I kiss the side of his head while I gently pat his back. In his drunk state he turns around as I lift my hand from him and I feel my eyes blur with unshed tears as I see the puffiness around his eyes.

He cried before coming home too...

I raise my hand and stroke his cheek before getting more comfortable in my position on the floor as I reach out to hold his hand. His usually warm and soft hands are cold and more rough than the last time I was able to hold it. The last 5 months have been hard on him and I can't blame him.

It's my fault he turned out this way anyway and there is nothing I can do to fix this so all I can do is try to stay near him to try and help him even though I can't do much.

"I'll stay by your side until you heal Yoongi...I promise I won't break this promise this time" I smile and link our pinkies before resting my head against the side of the couch closing my eyes.

Please be a better day tomorrow....

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With the morning sun streaming in through the blinds I sit back in the same place I usually sit by the window near my mini bookshelf.

He should probably get rid of this soon....

I shake my thoughts off as I stare at Yoongi who is now awake yet still blankly staring at the ceiling. He has been like this since we both woke up a few minutes ago but I guess he is still recovering from his hangover as a deep frown in still evident on his face.

"This always happens..." I sigh and he rubs a hand over his face before resting his hand on his heart letting out a deep sigh.

"Great...I'm awake again...."His voice breaks in between his words before turning his head to where I am sitting as he blankly stares at me.

"Good morning Mina..." I smile at him but my smile falters a bit as I press my lips together.

"Good morning Yoongi"

A small silence follows as he still blankly stares at me before the silence is broken by his phone ringing. His eyes shut instantly from the sound before he reaches into his front pocket and takes out his phone. He stares for a few seconds before rolling his eyes and declining the call.

"Not today Jin-hyung" He sighs and I scoff at his words staring at him with wide eyes.

"Seriously Yoon? You can't ignore one of your best friends when he is clearly calling so early in the morning because of something important" I huff but my words fall onto unhearing ears as he turns away from me curling into himself.

"I wonder if he was with you last night. Please tell me you atleast didn't go drinking alone" I press my lips into a thin line before standing up and walking towards him with my hands on my hips.

"Yah! Min Yoongi I wish I could just pull you by your ears so that you can finally listen to me" I look at him still unmoving before looking down at his phone he set down on the table. I spare a small glance at him before closing my eyes sitting down on my knees in front of the phone while I lightly tap on the still open contact.

I silently celebrate as I see the phone start ringing and I hurry back to my place on the couch as I see the call being picked up.

"Yoongi?! Yah! First you decline my call and then you decide to call me back?! You have a lot of explaining to do young mister!"

Seokjin speaks fast and I smile at his concern while Yoongi raises his head surprised as he looks over his shoulder with wide eyes.

"Jin-hyung? I'm sure I pressed decline" He mumbled confused before sitting up and holding his head.

After a few seconds grounding himself he picks up the phone with an empty expression and I lean closer to be able to hear since I know Jin speaks loud when he is stressed.

"Hyung-"

"Finally! How could you ignore me the first time-"

"Please stop yelling I have a headache" He hisses and I scrunch my nose up at his tone.

"Oh he isn't going to get away with this" I shake my head knowing Jin is going to yell now.

"DID YOU GO OUT DRINKING ALONE AGAIN?! YOU KNOW WHAT I'M COMING OVER AND SO ARE THE OTHERS DON'T YOU DARE LOCK YOUR DOOR!"

"What?! No I'm warning you-"

I hear the call cut as Yoongi sits with a scowl on his face before throwing his phone down on the couch and cursing.

"Don't look so grumpy Yoon they a re only trying to help you" I give an encouraging smile but he scoffs and lets out a bitter laugh.

"I don't want them here why can't they understand...I don't need help from them I need you to turn back time and undo what happened then I will be fine" He lifts his head and stares in my direction while I suck in a deep breath.

I really hurt him a lot...

"Nobody can turn back time Yoongi..."

"Aish I'm pathetic..." I grabs at his hair before standing up and slowly walking out of room towards the bathroom.

I sink more into my seat feeling defeated so early in the day.

Once again the same old story....