Regulus Black's Love |Year 6| (Jegulus) ON HOLD

Skipping Class

TW: SH, INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, IMPLIED ABUSE

Regulus' POV:
When I woke up the next morning, nobody else was in the dorm. It was already ten in the morning. I had already missed some of my classes, but I didn't plan to go anyways.

I grabbed a book from my nightstand and opened it. There was a note taped on the inside of the cover. It was from when James gave me the book for my birthday over the summer. I hadn't opened it yet. It was an astronomy book.

Reg,
You're my favorite star
Love of your life, James

I took my wand from the stand and pointed it at the note that I took off the cover. "Incendio,"
The letter lit up in flames. I put out the fire when I decided that enough of it was destroyed.

I didn't want to think about James, but that's all that I did. I couldn't even leave the dorm out of fear of seeing him! Why, James, have you done this to me? I thought that you wouldn't care... I thought that maybe, you could help me. I didn't decide this James.

But you did, Regulus.

The voice was back.

You did decide this. You were too afraid to actually stand up to your family. You chose to get the Dark Mark. It's all your fault.

That's not true. It wasn't my fault. My mother would have killed me!

Maybe the world would be a better place if she had killed you.

Maybe...
Can you just... please leave me alone?

You know that I won't.

Fine. If you won't leave me alone, I'll find a way to make you leave me alone.

And that's exactly what I did. I took the blade off my nightstand and rolled up my sleeve. I took off the bandages, and I cut until the voice went away. I got up to wash the cuts and went back to my bed. I had to wrap my arms in the bandages again. I didn't roll down my sleeve though, and I let my arm just hang off the edge of the bed, my other arm behind my head.

I don't know how long I laid like that when Darren walked into the dorm.
"Hey, Reg, how are you doing?" He sat down next to me. I didn't answer him, opting instead to stare up at the ceiling in silence. "Reg, I know you're going through something right now, but we're all worried about you. You need to come to class," I still didn't respond. "Please answer me," more silence. "Fine, if you won't talk to me, I bet you will talk to Pandora,"

He left the room, and five minutes later, he came back with Panda.
She sat down next to me with her usual excitement. "Hey Reggie, how's it goin'?"
"Don't call me Reggie," I muttered, not looking at her.
She smiled. "Ha! I got you to talk," she paused for a long time. "Your arm..."
Shit! I forgot about that. My sleeve was still rolled up.

I quickly rolled my sleeve back down to hide my arm. "It's nothing– really,"
"Tell me what's going on Reg," Panda looked at me with sympathy as I sat up to face her. "You know that you can be honest with me,"
"It's fine. Just– go away," I turned away from her and Darren. "I just want to be alone,"
Panda put her hand on my shoulder for a second. "Reg..."
"I said go away!" I yelled, pushing her hand away from me.

They left, and I instantly broke down in tears. Why why why did I have to say that??

Yeah, why did you?

I ignored the voice and just sat in silence. I hated being alone. I needed my friends to be there, but I had yelled at them. I'm such a bad friend. I don't deserve to be here

Half an hour later, I fell into an uneasy sleep.

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