You are Our Habit

Chapter 7

Minghao was stable when he came back to dorm but his internal panic and distress scent was still there. The distress scent was something he couldn't control until internally he's totally fine. So after entering the dorm he immediately went to his room where none was there and shut the door. But his members, who were already awake, some were eating breakfast, some were still processing the world, smelled the distress scent even in that fractions of second, they could feel something had happened and their Alphas were ready to fight back. When Mingyu entered, everyone was curious, but they also felt bad with the look on Mingyu's face. He clearly looked disgusted and dissapointed. Mingyu sat down in living room for a moment in silence then told them everything. Everyone started raging with anger. They wanted to kill those bastards but obviously they couldn't do that.

Jeonghan being the most understanding one, read the room first and gulping down his own rage, said,

"This is exactly why we've to be very careful with Myungho always. We need to be always with him. This world is very disgusting."

"But will he allow this?" Mingyu asked worriedly.

"He might not, as before he used to do everything alone and nothing happened as his scent was hidden but now it's not and it'll attract those creeps. But we still have to guard him no matter what he says." Said Vernon, who was already worried when after waking up he couldn't find Minghao in bed and looked everywhere but then found Mingyu was not in dorm too so he was assured that probably they're together.

"What will happen if we someday release our ABO result to the world? I can't even think about it. His saesangs....oh..."
Seungkwan said in a concerned voice.

"Jun, please try to be with him now, looks like he is still panicking. His distress scent is still here. I think he'll be comfortable with you at this moment."
S.coups said to Jun.

Jun stood up worriedly and hurried in to their room, knocked twice, nobody opened. Then he started talking in their native language in a very a low voice.

"Myungho ya let me in, I'll not ask you anything, but please open this door. Don't hurt yourself like this please."

After a moment of more comforting words from Jun finally Minghao opened the door and let him in. It was clearly visible that he was crying, his eyes were swollen, his nose was red too. Jun hugged him and could still feel the shivers of his body. In that warmth also Minghao couldn't stop his tears and cried on Jun's shoulder. Jun made him sit on the bed and he sat beside him in silence. Slowly Minghao let his head fall on Jun's shoulder which was feeling unexpectedly heavy for his own body and let those tired eyes to have some rest.

When he woke he saw he was sleeping on his bed and Jun was hugging him. Jun was not asleep, he was continuously staring at him.

"You feel better?" Jun asked when he opened his eyes properly.

"Hm"

His distress scent was not there anymore, the sweet scent came back. He was feeling better again, only little tired from crying.

"Did I sleep very long?"
He asked.

"No, just an hour."
Jun replied while tugging Minghao's hair behind his ear.

"I'm sorry Jun."

"Why?"

"I....didn't mean to worry you all for me....but...."

"Myungho, it's not your fault. You get that? It's not your fault. We all care for you so we'll always be worried for you that's natural. And you don't have to be sorry when the fault is not even yours. This world is disgusting Myungho and I hope you know that from this day."

Minghao nodded.

It's still very surprising to him that how easily his soul calmed down with Jun's company. Anytime his mood was off he'd go to Jun and immediately feel better. Probably being from same country was really a benefit that he got to have Jun always beside him. And he was very grateful for that.

Minghao sat up.

"Is everyone outside?"

"No, I think few went to practice."

Jun stood up too.

They both came out from the room and saw most of the other members were still in the living room, except Dino, Seungkwan and Woozi. Probably they went for their respective practices. S. Coups was also going somewhere when Minghao stopped him. Everyone was confused with this sudden action.

"Coups hyung, can you wait for a moment?"

Minghao managed to say by almost running towards the door.

Coups stopped in his trail and closed the door again.

"Yes. What is it Myungho? Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I just...I want to release the ABO result. Can you talk to the company please?"

Now with that everyone stood up even Coup's face became concerned too.

"But Myungho it's totally fine if we don't do it though. It doesn't really matter, Carats will understand us."

"I know hyung, but our fans also share everything to us right? When they're having boyfriends or girlfriends, when they're marrying, when they're having kids....all of these. They didn't need to share all those but they still do because they think we all are one family. Then how can I be the only exception to not share this important thing? I know after today's incident you all might be more worried for me, which I understand hyung. But I can't always be afraid and closeted like this right? One day or other I should come out and be proud about it, you all told me that. So I just want to follow that. And more than that I've all of you, nothing really matters anymore to me. If you guys detest me then I'll consider to leave this earth probably."

It took him huge courage to say everything without crying or shaking. He started gasping for air after finishing. It was he who always wanted to hide for the sake of his members but now that he had the support of them, he wanted to celebrate it from every aspect. Even though today's experience taught him how he was actually risking himself yet he wanted to be open to everyone as his own true self. Not as someone who was pretending to be something anymore. Finally, he wanted to be truly Minghao, the Minghao he really was. The Minghao he always wanted to hide.

S. Coups could tell how brave Minghao was in that very moment. So he didn't take his time, he hurried back, hugged Minghao and kissed his forehead, which was he knew quite shocking not just for Myungho but also for other members who were standing there watching everything & listening everything. But he cared nothing that moment. He hugged him as tight as possible and let his scent occupy his mind as soon as it was possible. And then he freed him but still held his shoulders,

"I'll try my best Myungho, I promise, and hyung will always protect you."

Minghao was perplexed but he somehow managed to nod.

Coups went away, this time with less concern but with more responsibility on his shoulder, leaving surprised, perplexed, vulnerable Minghao behind at the hallway staring at the door. Also leaving jealous members behind.

Jun and Vernon both of them felt the sting, it hurts but they knew it'd be their life now. And by looking at other members they could clearly see they felt the same. Protecting Minghao was going to be the main goal but would it be able to turn them against each other now?!

Minghao could feel his heartbeat became faster.