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Hello Forks, again.

Dear Diary,

I have mixed feelings about this whole moving situation. I am extremely ambivalent right now. I've always hated the beach, the sun, the freaking sand everywhere. So basically the climate was not my favorite thing about Phoenix, but I got a really kind and caring friendgroup and all my high school memories bind me here! Even tho I was an exchange student in Barcelona for one year, so basically I went to 3 different classes.
I'd say I am kind of excited, but this would be my last year in high school and it really throws me off, that I have to change school this close to the end! It will be so easy for Bella -as all the things seem to be- because she will be only in her junior year! She has got plenty of time to get to know everybody and get use to a different system with a whole lot of different teachers!
Do I hate mum for putting me in a situation like this AGAIN? I'd say no, I am just furious because she is prioritizing her own childish adventures over our well-being. I guess this is how she was always like.

I have to make my good bye for a while now, because moving to a different city in a different state, with our dad, who was never really a chit-chat type of person, will be tough, I must say.
CASS

I closed my diary and throwed it in my suitcase. I was ready to leave already, I just wanted to write into my little book of secrets for the last time. I've been writing my little diary since freshman year. Every joyful memory and every crumb of my love life (which has not gone wild yet) was in my journal. That was the only thing that was constant in my life. Except Bella. We did not have so much in common to be honest. She has got an extremely pale skin, dark brown hair, chocolate brown colored eyes. She is not much of a talker, just like our dad. She had some friends, but she never came to parties with me.
I am the exact opposite. I am very outgoing and I've always loved a good gossip. I have got a darker blonde hair, but I am pale as hell too and my eyes are ocean blue, just like our mother's. So basically Bella got Charlie's features and I got mom's.
But I still loved Bella more than anything in this world. Sometimes I was a bit jealous of her, because her life always seemed so easy and I was always the one to be blamed. I guess this is what it's like to be an older sister. But this didn't change the way that I'd protect her from everything, I could never imagine my life without her. We were so different but so similar at the same time. Even when we were children, we could only rely on the other.
'Thinking about what? ' my mother asked in a kind tone.
'Nothing, really. I'm just dejected that I have to leave everything behind and move to a city that we already escaped once' I said, then I felt a drop of tear running down on my cheeks.
Mom wasn't able to say anything, she just gave me the most heart-warming hug I've ever had.

After a quick flight, Charlie picked us up at the airport to took us home with a freaking police car.  The ride passed in silence. Nor Bella and I was in the mood to talk. Charlie rehearsed a few jokes and asked about our flight but these were only short conversations. But it was fine. Everyone of us were nervous. Charlie was a good father but never got any chance to show it and his time has come to shine. I was scared even tho I have pretty good social kills. If it was tough for me how tough it must be for Bella? The thought were ramming inside my head, I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, cry all my tears out, but I kept quiet. I did not want to hurt Charlie. It was definitely not his fault.

I opened my eyes on a driveway that looked so familiar. The house that we were born into. I hesitated for a bit then hopped out of the car to fill my lungs with the fresh air that Forks can claim as his own. I was not so devastated anymore.
'Welcome home Cassiopeia and Bella, I guess.' said Charlie in a nervous way.
Charlie left everything the way we left it. My room was literally untouched, he made a little renovation on Bella's. All my posters, my stuffed animals, arts and crafts supplies and even my guitar was in the same place! Charlie was always famous for respecting our privacy. My room was the smaller bedroom on the second floor, but the cozier. I choose this room for a reason. First of all, it was closer the the bathroom that we shared with Bella and since I was a makeup kind of girl, I needed to be the first in the morning to occupy the bathroom. Second of all my room had a big floor-to-ceiling window with a cute armchair in front of it.  The walls were painted lavender purple, my fav color in fact! Im still very fond of my room!

I unpacked my stuff then rushed over to my sisters room.
'Cass, do you still do not know how to knock?'
'Nope. I just wanted to check if you are alright.' - I said settling down on her bed.
'Quite alright. I'm scared a tiny bit. New school, new people...This is not really my cup of tea.' Bella said wiping her tears off.
'Come here, my sweetheart. Everything is gonna be alright. I promise you. We got this okay? Always and forever.'
'Always and forever' she repeated our little password calmly.

To be continued...

Thank you for reading it! xoxo