He Stoled My Vaginity

chapter 11

Mother is a criminal, I said silently.
Mother how could you?
How?
I paced around not knowing what next to do or say.
She held my clothes.
Rina !! Rina please beg Raymond's on my behalf.
I faked a smile, you mean I should beg him on your behalf.
Hell no! I said no.
Do you know what your son is passing through right now.
Do you know ever since I got married to him, he has not for once smiled or talk to me just because of you.
Because of you mother.
Mother you are a real devil.
Four children!!!!
Four children I yelled and bursted into tears.
No wonder your son was looking for a virgin.
No wonder he dislike me and doesn't wanna see me after marriage.
Mother you caused all this.
Mother you are the cause of what am going through right now.
So you want me to beg Raymond on your behalf?
How on earth will I beg him ?
I can't do that mother.
I can never do that, just go meet him and beg him yourself.
He's your son, how do you want him to feel?
Mother you are the caused of the pridicament, difficulty and awkward situation Raymond is right now.
I was wondering what could have happened to him, I was wondering what could be the caused not knowing it's you mother.
Mother it's you.
Right now, am done with Raymond.
I remember the nonsense paper I read earlier.
YOU ARE PREGNANT.
I touched my tommy, can I truly be pregnant?
No! No! This must be a joke.
I can't be pregnant, I can never be.
I started hitting my self so hard, let's assume am pregnant.
No! Let's just assume am pregnant.
Who's responsible for it?
I shouldn't imagine something like this.
It's just out of it, it's out of it, I screamed.
I picked up my bag and stopped a bike.
Please take me to Greenlight Hospital.
I hopped on it, without negotiating with the man.
I cried silently, I must not be pregnant.
Nooooooooooo.
I must not be , I bursted into tears.
What's wrong madam?
The bike man asked.
I wiped my tears and noticed we've gotten to the hospital.
I gave him money without collecting change.
I started running towards the entrance of the hospital.
Madam your change!. your change the bike man shouted.
I didn't answer, I walked in and was directed to a nurse.
I was told to urinate in a small bottle.
I started shaking and sweating.
I prayed silently not to be pregnant.
I sat in the waiting room, patiently waiting for the results.
I suddenly bursted into tears.
I must not be pregnant.
No! I can't be pregnant.
Now am ready to leave Raymond, am ready to leave.
I can't continue staying with him.
I'll surely die before my time if this continues.
The nurse walked up to me and handed over the result to me.
My hands were shaking as I held the result.
I was afraid to open.
I dragged the nurse to her office.
Please! Please am I truly pregnant?
Please talk to me?
Talk to me please.
Yes madam, you are pregnant. Congratulations!
I fell on the floor, No!
No!
This is not true, this is not true.
It's not mine, the result is not mine.
I can't be pregnant?
For who?
For who?
My lecturer?
The lecturer is responsible for my baby.
I removed my head tie, nurse please redo the test.
Please redo it.
Madam the result is yours.
It's yours, please open and read what is being written there.
It's not a mistake ma'am.
I pointed to the result on the floor, you mean!!!
You mean!!!!!
So I'll definitely end up like mother inlaw.
I'll end up like that woman who gave birth to bastard.
No! I won't end up like her, never!
I screamed and started touching myself roughly.
The nurse shouted, woman you are hurting yourself.
Please take it easy.
Take it easy.
No, I don't want to end up like her.
I cleaned my face and move closer to the nurse.
Please I need your help.
See, see I didn't know when tears started flowing down my face.
This is going to ruin my life, it's going to ruined it.
I need your help, please help me get rid of it.
I really want to get rid of it right now, I pleaded.
She drew me to the couch and have me sit.
Madam, I understand what you are passing through, it's seems you scared the baby is not for your husband.
But madam, you shouldn't think of doing abortion.
She sighed, you mustn't do it madam.
I repeated, don't ever try it.
Your life is more important than what people are going to think.
Please it's dangerous.
It's so dangerous that you might lose your womb in the process.
It's a lie, stop lying, nothing will ever happen to me.
You think you can stop me by that nonsense preaching of yours.
Hell no! I yelled Noooo.
I will terminate this and be free.
I want to be free again.
I can't go back into that loveless and miserable marriage.
I need to follow my mum's advise, I need to explain everything to mum once I remove this thing in my tommy.
I kneeled before the nurse, please!!!
Please help me get rid of it.
I don't want to be like mother-in-law.
I don't want to end up like her.
I don't want people to see me like her.
I'm different from her, I broke down into tears.
She carried me up.
Am afraid I can't be of help.
I took the result and angrily walked out of the hospital.
I screamed, you aren't the  only nurse on earth.
You aren't, I'll go somewhere else.
I'll go to pharmacy and get rid of it myself.
I started running, weeping and wailing.
I noticed my phone ringing, I picked.
Hello Rina.
Rihanna!!! Please come over.
Please come over.
Raymond, I screamed.
Why the hell are you calling me.?
Please let me be, let me be.
I'm done with you Raymond, I'll leave before the divorce paper arrived.
I'm coming home to park all my things.
I said amidst tears.
Rina can you just come over please.
Rina!!
Rina!!!
I cut the phone and walked into the pharmacy.
I told the pharmacist I met that I needed an abortion drug.
Without wasting of time, he gave me drugs.
I was told to use 12 of the drug at once.
I changed my mind and decided to use 20. I need quick abortion.
I smiled to myself.
Now am done with Raymond.
Am done with him for good.
No more forcing myself on anyone.
I walked home and started feeling stomach pain and nausea.
I need to go get my things in Raymond house.
I got home and observed Raymond's car parked outside.
I hissed and walked into the house.
Rina ! Rina blood.
I looked at my clothes and it was soaked with blood.
Oh my God, I started feeling dizzy and weak.
I fell on the couch, Raymond ran to me and carried me up.
Rina what's wrong?
Please talk to me.
You are bleeding for God sake.
Rina you are bleeding.
He raised the paper I tore earlier up.
I saw this in the bin.
Are you pregnant?
Rihanna are you pregnant?
I felt so weak and was unable to talk.
Rina please talk to me, I noticed tears on his face.
I opened my eyes gently and nodded my head.
Tears dropped from my face.
Rina you are pregnant.
You are pregnant, he hugged me so tight.
The result I was given earlier dropped on the floor.
He picked it up.
Oh my goodness, Rina !
Hope is not what am thinking.
Rina don't tell me you aborted the baby.
He screamed, Rina tell me it's a lie.
He touched and placed his head on my stomach.
Is my baby still there.
Rina!
Rina , he started crying, don't tell me it's gone.
Two weeks shows it's mine.
Rina the baby is mine.
It's mine, he screamed.
I shut my eyes and didn't know when I fainted on Raymond's lap.