Rumple x Reader (IM BACK BEECH!!!)

Chapter 18

Your POV
God! just cross the line! why so hesitant?
"S-sweetheart......" suddenly rumple came up to me. his hands on my stomach.
"Please...........we can work something out!"
"NO! don't you get it? I DONT WANT KIDS! I never did....."
"Why?" his eyes were soft. tears forming in them as well.
"I just don't ok......."
"I want to know why....." his voice was shaky.
"Because they wast time! how can I be me if u have to change myself for a child!"
Rumples POV
She sounds like my father when he abandon me in neverland.....
Your POV
"But change is the best part! it's for the better! children are the better version of ourselves....." I tear came from his eye. his son....... he is talking about his son..........
"I'm sorry......" I stroke his face with the back of my hand. "I know your talking about your son......... and I wish you still had him... but I would not make a good mother. you would be the very best father-"
"No" he looked down.
"What?" I took a step closer as his hands went to his sides.
"I would not make a food father. I never did........." another tear fell from his brown sparkling eyes.
"That's the past!"
"But the past still hurts........" he pouted.
"Ah, yes, the past can hurt but the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it" I give him a reassuring smile as he looks up. his hair was in his face, in front if his eyes.
"You would be a grate mother, y/n"
"No, I would not"
"But your so gentle and always know what to say!"
"My father was a drunk. he always drank. I just know how to calm people. I just know how to take pain but not give it. but that's what I did to you. matter a fact I'm doing it now" he looked up at me.
"Your not saying he....."
"I am. lets just say leather belts don't feel very good." I put my hands on his belt.
"No......"
"Neither does a yard stick, oh worse of all hot metal." His eyes widen.
"Why?" he put his hands in my sides.
"He was drunk...... that's another reason I was a little mad you were at the bar. the man gave you whiskey, he ust to drink that.....but it would be your choice not mine if you did it did not."
"I, I am so sorry!" he hesitantly pulled me close.
"It's fine I, got ust to the belt and yard stick but not the metal"
"May I ask, wouldn't you have scars?"
"I do" he furrowed his eye brows.
"They are on my back......." he pulled me closer. I pulled away.
"I need to cross that line"
"Wait! DONT you see?" I sighed.
"Look I know you want kids. I just don't. and maybe if you want kids..... you should find someone who does. I'm sorry that I can't make you happy......(mumbles this next part) not like I really make any man happy for very long...."
"It's me who should make you happy! not you making me happy. and I your the only woman who would-" he paused "like me"
"And you kept me happy sense the first time I saw you walking down the street."'
"You heard that?" I said it in a sarcastic question voice.
"Yeah..." He gives a reassuring side smile. "Any man that you can't keep happy is not worthy of you. never the other way around."
"Look, I can't do this........"
"Yes you can!" he hold my shoulders.
"No I can't..." I shrug his hands off and turn the other way.
"Dearie, please lets at lest talk!"
"(Place small laugh) you hardly say that to me, dearie. and what are we doing now?"
"This is not all your choice!"
"Yes it is!"
"No the hell it's not!" He raised his voice. "yes your the mother, yes it's inside of you but I'm also the father! without me our child would not be there!"
"Maybe that's a good thing...." I mumble.
"Look...." he looked down as he took both his hands in my own. "being a parent is scary. trust me! but it's something I would always like to remember with my son. even if it was hard to comprehend the ruff parts I sill enjoyed the little good times we had" tears formed in his eyes "being a parent was the best thing that ever happened to me. or at least one of em." he looked up at me a winked.
"I don't want to take this away from you but I don't want to keep it" I place my hands on my stomach. "the sooner the better, yeah know?"
A tear from his sparkling eyes fell onto the black pavement. I bring my hand to his cheek and wipe away the falling tears with my thumb.
My eyes start to get heavy. suddenly I faint.
Rumples POV
She started to faint but I cought her in my arms.
"Y/n? y/n? y/n what's wrong? y/n? Y/N! Y/N!" I scream as I gently shake her. I pick her up in my harms her head laying on my chest. she was so beautiful! yet I was scared.
"Darling! darling! please wake up!"
Yet she did not. magically I poof us to her room. I lay her on the bed and sit on the edge next to her. I place my hand on her cheek.
"Y/n..." I look down at the floor.
Suddenly she sits up.
"What happened?" she rubs her eyes.
"YOUR AWAKE!" I hug her.
Your POV
What the hell? confused I hug him back.
"What's wrong? what happened?"
"You fainted..."
"Oh..." damn it! now he's going to make me keep this bloody thing!
"You must be exhausted!" He strokes my face.
"I am" I look into his eyes.
"I will be back" I get up and walk to the bathroom. I close the door get dresses and brush my teeth. I walk out to see him still sitting on the bed.
(Both ready for bed him your bed)
Rumples POV
She lay on her back me on my side. my hand was on her lower stomach.
(Slowly falls asleep)
Sorry this was short needs more ideas