Requested by @theyalluvmiika. <3
Ryan's POV
He was the only thing on my mind as of recently. Seeing him made my day instantly better and everyone but him knew.
I am currently watching Justin as he is talking to Oliver about the video we are about to film. The way the light hit his face made him look angelic.
"You're staring." Kane says, coming to sit next to me.
"Shit." I turn toward him. "It's hard not to."
Kane just nods. "You should confess."
"What? No."
Darren comes over to us.
"Whatcha guys talking about?"
"How Ryan should confess to Justin." Kane tells him.
"Oh yeah. Confess to him, Peanut."
"Stop. Don't call me that." I tell him.
Darren pouts. "Anyway, I agree with Kane."
Sebastian appears from nowhere and puts his arms around Darren's shoulders.
"Kane and Darren agreeing on something. That's unusual."
"Seb?" Darren looks at Sebastian who is resting his head on Darren's shoulder, "Do you think Ryan should confess to Justin?"
"Of course he should. That's something we can all agree on."
"Seriously, Seb? You're not helping." I tell him.
"Uh yes, I am. Thank you."
"Just be straightforward with him. Flat out say 'I like you.'" Kane suggests.
"Maybe."
"Ok, guys!" Ty says from the other side of the room. "Time to start filming."
So with that, we have a long day of filming ahead of us. We do our challenges and skits. Everything is going great. After filming we all go to do who knows what. I head to Justin's room to tell him how I feel. When I get there, I hear the shower going in his bathroom so I decide to wait for him.
The shower soon turned off and Justin emerged from the bathroom wearing only sweatpants. He looked good, to say the least.
"Oh, hey Ryan! What's up?" He asks.
"I... I have to tell you something important."
"Ok, what is it?"
He runs his hand through his wet hair and then uses his towel to dry some of his hair. I'm mesmerized and frozen until I realize I'm supposed to be speaking. I clear my throat and go for it, taking Kane's advice.
"Justin, I like you. More than a friend."
Justin looks at me. Stunned. He stopped moving and just stands there. Analyzing my face. He tries to say something multiple times but fails. He attempts one last time.
"Ryan, I-"
"Don't even tell me, I already know. I just needed to get that out...."
I stood up, not letting him have a chance to say more and leave. When I get to my room I rethink the interaction. It felt robotic to me. I knew what to say as if it was programmed. I didn't show any emotion either.
I lay back on my bed, trying to think everything over. What have I done?
I lay there for a good half hour overthinking. As I'm laying there, there's a knock on the door.
"Who is it?!" I ask.
"Regie."
"Come in."
He opens the door and comes into my room. He stands there for a few seconds looking at me.
"What?"
"I came to ask for a charger, but you seem upset. I'm going to be a good friend for a second and ask, what's wrong, cuz?"
"I told Justin."
I watch as his eyes widen and he comes closer.
"What'd he say?"
"I don't know. I didn't give him the chance to say anything."
"Well that's stupid."
"Don't you think I know that?"
"You have to talk to him."
"Already did. Didn't go so well."
"Come on, bro. Let your emotions show. Just because you're scared doesn't mean that you shouldn't fucking go for it cuh. Be afraid, it'll help push you along."
"That was strangely poetic. Are you feeling ok?" I smile starts to spread on my face.
"Bro, shut up." A smirk spreads across his face as well.
"Come on, I'll even walk you to his room." Regie grabs my hand and pulls me up.
Soon, I'm standing in front of his door again.
"What are you waiting for?" Sebastian comes up to us. "Are you going to tell him?"
"No. I already did. I'm going to get a reponse." I tell him.
Seb looks between me and Regie, confused. Regie gives him an 'I'll tell you later' look.
"Bro, knock on the door already." Regie starts to get impatient.
" I don't think I can."
"Sure you can," Seb grabs my hand and holds it in front of the door, "Just like this."
He knocks on the door with my hand then him and Regie run for it. I curse at them under my breath before Justin opens the door. I stand there awkwardly.
"Hi," is all I can manage.
"Hi...... Are you ready to continue the conversation from earlier? I mean, I still need to respond."
"Yeah."
He grabs my hand and pulls me into his room. He sits down on the bed, still holding my hand so I take a seat next to him.
"I'm going to be honest, I was completely surprised when you told me you like me. I also don't know how I feel." He pauses for a second, taking a deep breath. "but, I have this weird feeling when I am around you, I can't explain it, but I know it's a good feeling."
"Really?" I study his face.
"Yeah."
"You know what?" I start to feel bold."Go on a date with me. Just once. If you realize that you don't feel the same toward me, I will never bother you with this again. And if you do then maybe we can be something more. Either way, you will know."
"Ok."
He looks me over before pulling me into a side hug. I put both my arms around him, pulling him into a full hug. He does the same.
Things are looking up for me.
