I Belong To Him.

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LUCIFER'S POV:-

I thrusted in her roughly and soon came in her. She was asleep by then. Her face was all red with dried tears covering her face. Her eyes seem swollen from all the crying. Her whole body was covered into hickeys and bite marks. I felt proud. I marked her and she was all mine now. All by myself. No one dares to touch her. As my eyes went down i saw the bedsheet stained in crimson. FUCK. She was a virgin. I was so lost into her i never double checked if she bled or not. Dots connected. All her cries and pleading. Her screams when i first entered into her without any warning. Fuckkkkk. I messed up. She was a fucking virgin. It must've hurt her so bad to a point where she passed out. What the fuck did i do last night.? That's when i realised that i went to hard on her. I felt a rock hitting my heart at the scenes of last night. How she begged me to slow down. Her screamings. Her crying. All went to vain. I didn't listened to her. I kept thrusting into her even though she was crying. I kept forcing myself onto her. Guilt amd regret hit my stomach one by one. I felt the worst. She must hate me to hell by now. Fuck i ruined the first and last chance to win her heart. To win her trust. I lost it all. I got up from the bed and went to take a shower. I let the cold water run as i let my self drown in my thoughts. This is who you are Lucifer. She hates you to death and maybe wants you dead after what you did to her. She is never gonna love you. You are a monster who doesn't deserve any kind of love. My inner voice mocked me. I closed the shower tap and took some wet towels to clean sasha. I cleaned her and changed the bedsheets. As i was placing her on the bed again she murmured,

"please Lucifer slow down. Don't do this. It hurts me. Please......please."

I felt worst. I tucked her in and caressed her hair.

"I am sorry princess. I was wrong today. This will never happen again. Please forgive me." I said while caressing her hair

I felt a pang in my chest and i didn't even knew when the tears started spilling out of my eyes. I wiped them. Soon i went to sleep.

Next morning i woke up early to go to attend a meeting. I hate to let sasha on her own but i guess she doesn't want to see my face when she wakes up. Maybe i'll give her some time to herself.

I showered and dressed up. As i was about to go, i went to sasha. She was still deep in sleep. I gave her a forehead kiss and kept some painkillers beside her to take her when she wakes up. I'll make it up to her later. I went downstairs towards the kitchen where i met grace. As usual she was cutting veggies and fruits for the day's food and guiding others their respective work.

Grace was our oldest cook and house help. My mom hired her when i was a toddler. She took care of me most of the times. She fed me, played with me, read me book to sleep and what not. She was my second mother. After my dad passed away, my mom went into a depression and made herself busy with work. Grace was the one who took full care of me at that time. And when mom died, my world came crashing down. I felt ending it all but grace was reason i am fit and sound today. She motivated me when i was about to give up. She has a big amount of contribution in my success.

"Off to where mr Lucifer?" She asked.

"How many times do i have to tell you to not call me mr lucifer? Am i still an outsider to you grace? Just call me lucifer okay?" I asked.

"Oh no dear it's just that it has became an habit but I'll try to change it." she said.

"Also, yes i am going for some work. Can you make me some coffee please? Also some scrambled eggs would be heaven." I said smiling.

"Ofcourse my dear." She said while taking out the utensils.

"Also grace, can you take food for sasha to my room once she wakes up? Make sure she eats her breakfast. I would not appreciate my wife being empty stomach." I said.

"And i already apologise on her behalf if she's speaks or acts to you rudely. She's not in her best mood." I added.

"Don't worry lucifer I'll make sure she eats well. I'll make all of her favourite dishes and she'll melt into the delicious smell." She chirped.

I nodded as i took a sip of my coffee. The foodgasm hit me like a truck. Just the way i like it. Perfect.

I finished my breakfast and rushed outside.

SASHA'S POV:-

I woke up with a headache and heavy pain all over my body. My head was spinning. Suddenly i felt a aching pain in my lower area and last night's memories came flushing in. Suddenly tears threatened to escape my eyes. I felt like dying. As i recalled last night's Memories, Lucifer's brutality came into my mind. All my pleadings were unheard. All my screams, my crying came back to life infront of my eyes. How i begged him to stop. How i passed out from pain. Everything. I saw some painkillers kept on the side table with a glass of water. I gulped each one of the medicines. Later i collected my self and stepped down of my bed but as i took the first step my legs gave up and i came crashing down with a loud thud. I couldn't walk. I somehow managed to crawl towards the bathroom door and stood up with the help of the sink area. I washed my face and as i saw myself in the mirror, i was shook with how i looked. This is not me. This not what i look like. My body was full of hickeys, bite marks and fingerprints. I tried to touch my neck but it winced even if i caressed it. I was a mess. I entered the shower and let the cold water flow on my marks. It hurt as the water hit on my hickeys and bite marks. It was painful. After some time i went and sat into the bathtub and turned the hot water on. I let myself sink in the warm water in hopes that it would sink my sorrows and pain in it too. I laid there blankly and later came out of the bathroom and sat on the bed.

My mind was pitch black. This is not the life i wanted. This is never what i wanted. I wanted to experience true love. I wanted to give myself to someone i truly love and by my will. Something negative crossed my mind and thoughts of ending it all emerged. It was better to die than to live a life like this. I had so many dreams to fulfill. Everything crashed because of that trip. Because i had to explore the flight. If I hadn't gotten up from my seat i wouldn't have met Lucifer. Everything would've been fine. It's all my fault. I am worth nothing. Thoughts kept running into my mind until i saw a pair of scissors kept on the dressing table. My mind went blank and my legs started walking towards the pair of scissors. I had no control over myself. I took the sharp long scissors in my hand. As i was about to cut my wrist, i stopped. I didn't have enough courage. After few minutes i closed my eyes and let my hands  do the work and let my intrusive thoughts win. As i was about to cut my wrist someone snatched them out of my hand and pulled myself towards them. I fell into a broad chest. Lucifer. It was Lucifer.

"Have you gone crazy sasha!? What if something would've happened to you??" He asked while hugging me tightly.

"Do yo even know what would've happened to you if i did not entered our room and snatch that thing away from your hand?" He asked.

Senses suddenly kicked in. What was i going to do? What if..... What if i died. What if i didn't survive? What would my dad do? My mom.....kook..... OMG WHAT WAS I DOING? thoughts emerged into my mind and lucifer's voice started echoing into my head.
Tears started spilling from my eyes.

"What was i doing lucifer?" I whispered.

He stopped what he was saying and started caressing my hair in a calm way.

"Shhhh..... I am here now. I am not gonna let anything happen to you. Baby i am here." He said assuring.

I finally held him with both my hands and hugged him back. 

My cries started increasing until i collapsed onto the floor crying hysterically. Lucifer held me like a little baby and soon i fell asleep into his arms.

•𝔸𝕦𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕣 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕔𝕦𝕡𝕔𝕒𝕜𝕖🧁•