Reality Check

Him.

This bitch just broke up with me? After 2 years of being together. She told me that she had found someone else and left. Wow.

Look, I'm a clingy guy, who is constantly feening jealousy from my girlfriend. Sure, I could be a dick sometimes, but I knew she loved me, or so I thought. I thought I was in deep with her. I thought we would get married. But I guess you can have some wild dreams when you're 19. I'm a very committed person though. I told myself to stick with a girl if she would prove herself to me. If she would remember that I really liked her, and she showed me the same. And that's what Jessica did for me. She was sweet and considerate and she showed her love for me. You never would have guessed she'd been cheating on me for months.

Honestly, now that I think about it, she was a bitch, and I never realized it. I realized I wasn't exactly suffering from losing her, but only basking in the sorrows of time. Maybe I wouldn't be huddled in my room depressed for months like I had with after my other exes. Obviously I'll still take lots of time to myself before communicating about it with my buddies though.

I don't really understand why my exes cheat on me. Am I really that bad? Why can't they just break up with me like a normal person instead of after cheating. I gotta find out what's wrong with me before I go getting myself tied up with someone else. Hopefully my friends can help me figure that out. I really thought I was a cool guy but this just made me hit a reality check.

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A few weeks later, I'd decided to leave the apartment for the first time. I needed groceries and if I didn't get those, I'd probably die of starvation. I'd done a lot of thinking about my love life though. And I really realized some things about what I'd noticed about my attraction and status with Jess.

Nothing satisfied me and I found it hard to communicate my relationship fears with her. I wasn't sure if I was attracted to her or not, now that I think about it. I could say the same thing about my other girlfriends. Was I into girls? I couldn't be into guys. No way. I was straight. Right? Whoa whoa whoa. Too fast. This is all going to fast for me. I can't just suddenly realize I'm not into girls right? Was I that stupid? But I have never felt attracted to a guy—

"Ouch," I groaned after a blonde guy ran into me. He had scruffy hair, wide-framed glasses, and a scar on his cheek.

"I'm so sorry!" he croaked out in a mousy voice. He rushed over to touch my shoulder to see if I would feel any pain.

I grimaced but tried to stay silent enough to where he wouldn't hear me.

I felt weird, and I hoped I wasn't just proving the whole-ass rampage I'd gone on. It wouldn't be this quick would it? Now I feel weird when guys get near me? Or is it just this one? Noooo. Why is this happening to me now. It's all happening too fast. I'm so confused.

A tear left my eye because of my confusion, but the man turned to look at my face and the tear running down my cheek.

"I'm really sorry about your shoulder, and if you need to go to the hospital or something then I can give you a ride," he said as he wiped the tear off of my face. I could see my cheeks turning red, unsure if it was out of embarrassment or something else. I got more weird feelings. Butterflies? Aaaaa.

"N-no that's not why I'm crying, uh—," I said. His facial expression looked confused but he seemed to understand that I was going through a lot and he gave me a hug. "God I'm sorry. I don't know what's come upon me. I'm so confused. And I feel like I'm now overwhelming you, stranger. I don't even know your name?"

I backed out of his warm arms and found out his name was Spencer. I told him I was Matthew. He also gave me his number so that we could talk more about stuff, and he just wanted to see if my shoulder was okay, but we had to finish our shopping, so we parted ways for now.

I found what I needed, veggies, meat, and the like. I like to cook so this is perfect. It should help me recover too and maybe figure myself out a little more.

Once I was home and grabbed my phone and realized I'd received a text from one of my buddies and 4 texts from Spencer. Jeez.

My buddy was just wondering where I was, but Spencer was acting like I was going to die and freaking out about my shoulder and how he shouldn't have left my side in the store.

I'm fine. It doesn't even hurt anymore. Don't be so worried about me. You hardly know me yet anyways. Speaking of, we should meet up sometime, I texted him, Actually I'm about to start cooking, if you want to join me for dinner. I live alone so we could just hang out and watch TV or something.

He accepted the offer after saying he was glad that I was alright. I sent him my address and soon enough he was here.

A/N: I know it seems kind of quick, but it's fun to write lol

also i had a lot of problems with formatting this chapter, so i apologize for the mess

hope u enjoy