PARAMOUR - catching fire

i think i understand finnick

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chapter eight
non-existent to me
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the games were in my head in repeat she couldn't get rid of the killing, the canons , the yells.

the pain of the loved ones dying in your eyes.

finnick visited me everyday but i wasn't the same he knew that he understood, but I hated hurting him, i couldn't hurt him anymore.

so I have to stop him from him being close to me. I have too.

even if it hurts me i have too, i mean the capitol is taking me sooner or later. so we can't even see each other when they take me anyways.

i didn't want to do this , but I have too.

even if I love him , i can't do this to him anymore.

then I heard a knock on my door,knowing who it was.

Sylvia Opened up the door and finnick was smiled at her " hey syl"

" hey finnick what are you doing here?" she asked but she already knew

" syl we always hang out and we decided to hang out today." he said to her as she let him inside but he noticed something was wrong with her

" what's wrong?" he asked her

" what nothing." she said back to him but he always knew what was wrong with the girl that he was slowly falling for everyday.

" I know something's wro-" she cut him off

" we can't be doing whatever this is anymore." He eyes went to her face to see if she was lying or joking around anything

but he couldn't see if she was , she knew how to not show any signs of lying or any of that

" what? syl. come on , don't do this to me." he said to her in a pleading voice

" I'm sorry , I'm so sorry fin." she said to him in a breaking voice

but he walked out the door upset he couldn't believe this, he thought they were going to be something more , something real.

he wanted to marry her , he wanted to wake up beside her everyday. even though they were still young he had planned everything out with her.

now she's gone , she left.

but she was still alive in a way, but she wasn't herself.

he will get her back.

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AUTHOR

me publishing? can't believe it.

YOUNG THEM HAVE MY HEART.

we still don't have a ship name for them -

forever gonna cry over this fic.

foreshadowing in this chapter let's see if you can find it.

- Rae