Dominant//Submissive

ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ 𝟸𝟷: ᴜɴᴄᴇʀᴛᴀɪɴᴛʏ

I exhaled as he pushed off me, allowing some space between us, and I pull my pants back up.

Too many thoughts flowed in my brain, so much so that I wasn't actually processing anything.

"Alright, let me stop you there, little overthinker." He smirked as he brushed a piece of hair behind my ear. His finger left a path of muted warmth as it grazed my cheek. "Everything's fine. The world hasn't crashed and burned just because you let me eat you out."

My eyes widened. I wasn't shy when it came to sex, but I was nowhere near as open as Jungkook was. But then I thought back to our reunion dinner, and I wasn't surprised anymore. How he showed up with a girl, oh-so-obviously having just hooked up, not bothering to hide it.

The memory irked me a little; it was part of why I didn't want to start this whole thing. I wasn't stupid; I knew I wouldn't be the only one Jungkook was messing with. 

Still, the idea of having sex with someone and them going off to do the same thing with another person right after disturbed me. One of my slight icks. Whether that someone being Jungkook played a part in why it bothered me so much, I had no idea.

"Tell me what you're thinking, Iris."

"It's..." I struggled to say what I wanted to.

"Huh, left you speechless, didn't I?" He smiled, his dimples showing. God, I can't even remember the last time I saw him smiling, not smirking, a genuine smile. It was adorable. What the fuck. I liked seeing it a little too much.

"Alright, don't get too excited there."

"There she is." He responded like he knew exactly what to say to get a rise out of me.

I stayed silent, still in my thought bubble.

"Okay, I know what you're going to say. We had this conversation before, remember?"

I think back to the incident in the car.

"And here we are." He points out. "It seems like you just can't stay away from me." He jokes.

I glare at him, waiting for him to say something of actual substance.

"Alright. I'm kidding, but I'm not ashamed to admit I can't stay away from you, Iris. I meant what I said earlier. And now that I've had you, I can't subject myself to that type of torture again. Not when I know how you feel now, how you taste." His gaze darkened.

* "Let me clarify two things, Iris. First, there's no going back after this. Once I've had you, I won't be able to stay away. Not anymore." He paused, waiting for my reply. *

"Jungkook..." I bit my bottom lip, trying to figure out what to say. To be honest, I already knew what I wanted to say, but at the risk of sounding what was it.... territorial, insecure, needy... I stayed silent.

His eyes faltered to my lips before looking into mine. And like he knew what I was thinking again, "If I start this with you, I won't be doing anything with anyone else. Trust me, ever since you came back into my life, I've wanted no one else but you."

"How do you do that?" I asked.

"Do what?" He replied, humor dancing in his eyes.

"Be so honest."

"It's pretty hard to hide how I feel about you." He said outright. I tensed at the word. Feel. That's just what I didn't want to develop. I had enough feelings about my dad and life in general. I didn't want to deal with them in other areas where they weren't needed.

"Relax, baby. It's pretty hard to hide how attracted I am to you." He clarified.

"We both know how this goes, Jungkook. We've seen the movies, and I'm not stupid enough to believe that we'll be those people, the ones who end up not falling for each other."

"Hmm... so you're worried you'll fall in love with me."

"You know what I mean." I roll my eyes.

"Okay, but what's wrong with those movies? Don't they end up happily in love?"

"I can't tell if you're being serious, but I don't want to risk the possibility of a happily ever after if there's a chance that our friendship, and in turn, my relationship with the group falls apart. After..., I can't handle losing another relationship in my life, not right now."

"I won't let it get to that point. I know how much the boys mean to you, and I promise I won't let what's happening between us affect your relationship with everyone else." He tells me, not faltering.

"I just... I don't know. Can't you see all the red flags waving? I don't have a good feeling about this." I tell him honestly.

"Iris, is it me? Do you not want this because of me?" He asks, uncertainty flashing in his eyes.

"Well, kind of. But not in the way you think. I'm attracted to you. I think you know this-"

"I thought so." He smirked, cutting me off.

"Shut up."

"Yes, ma'am." He laughs but listens.

"It's the unpredictability of it all."

"I think I can predict a thing or two." He pauses. "Lots and lots of orgasms."

"Be serious!" I smack his arm.

"Nah, we need someone to compensate for your seriousness." He smiles again, that same damn smile.

"Alright, sure, whatever," I respond before sobering.

"Iris, do you want this? Don't overthink it, don't even think about it. Just, do you want this?" His gaze seared into mine, sincerity overflowing within it.

"Yes," I whisper. Fear and uncertainty flicker throughout my brain, blaring red alarms everywhere, but I answered with the first thought that came to mind, "I do."

'If only I actually gave a fuck about those red flags.'

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