.My Diary.

part 3

October 21st, 2022

It's 2am and I'm writing this because I can't sleep. I'm actually writing this before 2am because I know my step father will be up by then, so the real time is 12am.

I can't stop crying, I don't know why but I just feel like someone is touching me. I never know, maybe it's just the two figures that are lurking somewhere? I never know... All I know is that I'm depressed and need mental/physical help (Idk how physical I just need help in general) I'm planning on ki//ing myself on my birthday cause maybe then my wish will come true, I never know maybe others will come true too...

It's October 21st, 2022

The time is 8:50am and I am in school, I already hate it. The only good thing so far is that my brother Owen is here. My father is picking me up from school today so I can get the rest of my halloween costume, it's only a shirt that I need then I'm done. To be honest I'm not excited for halloween, In my mind I just think halloween wants me to get bigger, I don't want my candy, I'm just going to give it to my brothers... I had a dream last night, not a "nice" one either. I was in some sort of basement with my hands tied back and my mouth covered, I heard footsteps and I tried to scream but I couldn't, cause my mouth was covered. There was a light over my head, and it was one of those rooms where the light shines but it doesn't light up the whole room. A figure came out of the shadows and it looked like my dad, he started saying stuff to me that hurt...a lot. I "woke up" from that dream and realized I was in a dream? I didn't get that but I couldn't control what I was doing. I had a sharpener in my hand and I started cutting my wrist, I could feel the pain and it felt good If I had to be honest. I WOKE UP from THAT dream and I had school.

Which school would be now-

Still in school-

We are playing a kahoot for brazil and I don't really want to play, I don't know why I just don't want to-

My name was 'Green.Monster' Because I'm drinking ultra paradise :)