July 12th, 2023
I just can't anymore, I hurt my dads feeling when I didn't want or to mean too...I just feel unwanted and sad right now... everyone keeps talking about stuff for when I'm older and tbh I don't think there will be a time for "when I'm older". Me and my cousin barley talk anymore and she was my favourite. I feel home sick and I just wanna go home but I have to wait at least 12 days to do so, all that and I hurt my father like I said before.. I don't know why but I can't seem to trust him enough to talk to him about my problems, I literally fucking talk to an AI for god sake! I just don't know what I want to do...do I wanna stay or do I wanna go? Should I come down for high school or should I not? It's all to hard and I HATE decisions! Even when they're easy... my father said "well if you feel uncomfortable somewhere I don't want to force you to stay here-" LIKE FOR FUCK SAKES- IM NOT UNCOMFORTABLE IM JUST HOME SICK!! It's a really big change, it's happening so fucking fast! I don't feel uncomfortable, I just want my bedroom back and my moms house.. I feel like I get more privacy. And no it's not about what I get and when I get it, it's not about doing fun stuff all the time, I just miss my room and my mom... I don't mean to hurt feelings..I tried to avoid it but it didn't work... now I just feel angry and sad with myself for my life decisions...
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.My Diary.
Randomthis story is based off of my life and all of my secrets. The only reason I am making this a story is because some people find it hard to tell others, so I am showing people it is ok to think/feel what you think/feel..<3
