Ashton Rowland's Gay Ventures

Homecoming

Ashton's POV

I run into Sunils arms, he lifts me up. I missed you I say, I missed you too Ashy

I just needed time, Ash I'm sorry. I know but I wanted to be their for you, well you can now. I can, sure you can stay with me until I decide to go back. You mean it, yes Ashycub.i kiss him, I love you I really do. I love you too Ashton, I'm glad I found you. Me too, how did you know i here, even Ashton doesn't know about this place. Well Johnny did, that makes sense.

Why did you not tell me about this place, you were going through alot Ashton. What did you want me to say, yeah I know your upset by the way I have a castle. I just wanted to focus on you I still do, now your here I'll look after you my baby boy. Johnny hears this and gets mad, as he was in the doorway. Shit I'm sorry Sunny, I've caused problems between you too. Ashycub don't worry, I begin to cry. He hugs me, it's ok I promise don't worry. He hugs me tight, and kisses my cheek.

I'm not gonna stop me kissing you, hugging you and the rest of the romantic stuff, because he can't see me give the love he once had to someone else. We should not do it infront of him, Ash no. If I was with him, and you broke up with me I would do the same. Why should I stop showing you Affection my love, I love you. How else am I meant to shoe it, if can't take it boohoo.

I know you love Sunnybear, but still it's not fair. It is, I don't care what he thinks. He knows he fucked up, how long you gonna make him pay Subbybear. He's suffered enough, Ash don't you think I'm suffering still after everything I went through with him. I don't mean that Sunnybear, yeah I know Ashycub. It's just I love you, I can't help but show it. Noah is fine with it, and he knows ms the most. He doesn't say nothing, he was my ex too. I know, but it's fresh between you too. I know, but I'm not gonna stop because he can't handle it. I'll calm it down for you, because it's upsetting you Ashycub. I kiss him, he hugs me.

You not gonna go after him, guess I should. I smile, go sort this. I love you I whisper, I love you to my Cub.

Sunil's POV

I find Johnny on the doorstep, you ok. No I'm not, me seeing you love him the way you loved me hurts alot. It shouldn't you've moved on too, your with Trent. But still, I wish it was still me and you. I know you do, I'm sorry. Don't be, you should show Ashton you love him. You shouldn't stop because of my psychoness, your not psycho. Maybe I am, I cheated on you, ive made you hurt. I left you when you needed me the most, you did. But you were in a bad place yourself, doesn't mean your psycho.

It does, I'm bad to be around. I bring the worst out of people, no you don't John. I do, you know it. You did at times, but you also brought the best in me too. Trent thinks I don't love him, I left to find you. He probably thinks I can't get over my ex, and he's so right. John you need to try to, I have. It was hard, but I did it. I rub his shoulder, please don't he snaps. I didn't mean it like that, it just makes me wish I was with you more. Seeing you hurts too, but i need you in my life. Your still my Bestfriend, I know I fuck up alot. But I do love you, I know you do. I love you too, I'll never stop.

If you need time away from me, no I can't do that. It will break me more, I'll go crazy. I just hate myself, for hurting you. I'm such a idiot, you are but your my Idiot Bestfriend he smiles. I miss this, our jokes, the love the sex. Do you not miss it, no John. Because I'm with Ashton, I do miss you.

Right stupid question, I'm sorry. Its ok Johnny, why do I hurt you and fuck up. John I don't know, but I've forgiven you. So it shouldn't matter, how can you forgive me when I can't forgive myself. That's what hurts me, makes me mad. I can't look at myself in the mirror, without thinking I'm a fuck up. You wanted a good start in Toronto, and I fucked it up for you.

You didn't, you just made better. I knew I'd face challenges, so you helped me in a way you don't understand. Your not a fuck up, we all make mistakes I have. I've never seen you fuck up like I have, I've been the worst thing to happen to you. Who told you that John, myself. Well if I didn't say it John, it's not true. You didn't fuck up my life, you made it better. Yes you may of hurt me sometimes, but we got through it.