'Dear Luke,
Please take care of Mikey for me, I love him so much. This is so hard for me to write and I'm struggling not to just stop and leave, but you're too close to me. Nobody will understand how I feel and why I'm doing this, and I know because even I'm not sure. Just believe me when I say that I'll be happier. I will, any place is better than the hell on earth. I love you, I love you all- calum x'
