Between Heaven and Hell | A Rain-Ghoul Fanfiction

11. Sorry

Teardrops fell onto my pillow as I thought of all the mean words I said to Rain. I didn't mean any of them, sometimes it's like the words just escape from my mouth and there's nothing I can do to stop them.

Suddenly, there was someone knocking on my door. ''Yes?'' I replied. The door opened up slowly, it was Dewdrop. ''Hey Eve. Can I sit down?'' He pointed at my bed. I repositioned my body so that I sat down. ''Sure.'' I quietly said, not even looking at the little ghoul coming my way.

''You suck.'' He said, ruthlessly. I nodded. ''Yes, I know, is there anything else that you want to tell me?'' ''Yes. I can see that you're crying, your mascara is running down your face. It's probably because you regret it, right?'' I nodded once again. Dewdrop continued talking. '''Well, then I came here to tell you that you can un-suck by just apologizing to Rain, and the rest of the ghouls. There was no reason to insult the rest of ghoul-kind.'' I took a deep sigh. ''Yes, you're right. I'm sorry for being racist to ghoul-kind. I guess it was just because I got a little bit scared of Rain's reaction. You can't blame me for being mad at him, he's a liar! I would literally walk through the fires of hell for him, and this is how he treats me?''

Dewdrop rolled his eyes at me. ''Don't act like you're any better than him. It's not like you've never lied to us before. I'm sure that Rain would have a good reason to lie to you.''

He had a point. It was hard to accept that I was a total hypocrite. ''Sometimes, you'll have to accept that you're in the wrong. Once you can see that, you should apologize.'' Dewdrop said, like he could read my mind. ''Trust me, if anyone knows it should be me.''

I thought back of all the times Dewdrop has had tantrums. It usually wasn't anything serious, but it happened quite often. One time when Aether could play Dewdrop's guitar parts better than him, he insulted Aether's entire family. He was lucky that Aether was a naturally calm ghoul. Another time, he told Swiss that he wanted to have sex with a girl who Swiss had his eye on. Swiss, being the overprotective gentleman he is, didn't accept the fact that another man was talking about this girl like that. So he respectfully told Dewdrop to fuck off, which was something that Dewdrop didn't take well. The ghoulettes had to take him to another room just so that he could cool down before things escalated. But whatever happened, Dewdrop always apologized in the end. He had some anger issues, but at the end of the day, he was still a good person.

''You know what? You're right. I should say sorry to Rain and the rest of the ghouls. Starting with you, I'm terribly sorry for what I've said about ghouls, and it won't happen again.'' Dewdrop smiled. ''Apology accepted.''

We got up from my bed and walked back to the karaoke set. The music had stopped and Swiss and Phantom were just sitting there, not saying a word to each other. They didn't even want to look at me once I stepped into the room.

''Swiss, Phantom, I just wanted to say sorry for what I said about ghoul-kind. I didn't mean a word of it. Swiss, you are one of the best friends I've ever had. And Phantom, I haven't known you for a long time, but ever since I met you it feels like you've always been there. I trust you with all my heart, and I love you. Again, I'm sorry.'' Swiss looked me in the eyes. ''It's okay Eve.'' ''There's someone else who would rather accept your apology. He's in the garden.'' Phantom said. ''Thanks guys, and again, I love you!'' ''Love you too Eve!'' The 3 ghouls replied in unison as I made my way over to the garden.

Rain was sitting all alone on a bench in the garden. There was a little fountain next to him, he was watching the water fall down. I didn't know if it was just a Rain thing, or if all water ghouls were like that, but Rain always seemed to find some sort of comfort whenever he was close to water. Maybe it was the spark when the sunlight was touching the water. Or maybe he liked to listen to the water fall down. Or maybe it was a combination of those things.

''Rain?'' He turned his head so that he could see me. ''Can I sit down next to you?'' ''Yes.'' He replied, while he looked back at the fountain again. ''Rain, I'm sorry. I suck and I realize that now. This doesn't mean that I forgive you for what you did, but there was no reason for me to say the things I said. So I hope that you can forgive me.''

Rain thought about it for a minute. His eyes still gazing at the fountain in front of us. ''I forgive you, but there's something you should know.'' He said, when he was finally done thinking. ''What is it?'' I asked. ''So you know that new ghoul, Kärnan? People also call him Cobra?'' ''Yes, I know him. You have been acting so nervous around him, but I thought that you were just a bit socially anxious like you act sometimes when you don't know people very well.'' Rain shook his head. ''No, there's more to it. His grandma in hell is sick, just like mine was. I couldn't save mine, but I thought that maybe I could help save his. So even though I barely knew him, I wanted to help him because I know what it feels like. That was a mistake, how could I have been so naive?''

''What happened?'' I asked. I could see the pain in Rain's eyes as he continued to tell me what had happened. ''He was the one who told me to steal your key for him. I didn't want to, but then he started to threaten me. He said that- that-'' He hesitated to speak for a moment, but then decided to finish his sentence anyway. ''He said that he'd kill you if I didn't steal your key for him. He said that he'd do it if you ever found out. I don't know if he was serious, if he would really do such a thing. But I do know that I want to keep you safe, so that's what I did.''

I was silent for a few seconds after he told me that. All of this time, he wasn't lying about the fact that he didn't want me to find out who did it for my own safety. ''Thank you for telling me, Rain.''

''But there's more!'' He said. ''The worst part is that... Cobra's grandma can't be saved by money. I just found out this morning that there is no cure for her. Cobra just can't accept that, he's stuck in denial.''

I would have no idea what I would be capable of doing if my grandma was sick. But either way, it's not an excuse to threaten to kill someone.

''I should have known that you are too stubborn to give up on trying to find out who did it. Maybe I should have told you in the first place. Or maybe I should have just told The Clergy. I didn't because I thought that I was doing a good thing by helping Cobra's grandma. That was before I knew that there was no cure. I get it if you're still mad at me, but I don't want you to leave. And I don't want to sit here in silence either. So would you maybe want to...'' He grabbed his phone and a pair of headphones out of his pocket. ''Listen to some music with me?''

''I would like that.'' A small smile appeared on Rain's face while he gave me one EarPod. He put the other one in his ear while he opened up a playlist.

"Eve<3" was the name of the playlist. ''I didn't know that you made me a playlist?'' I asked. Rain looked at me with his beautiful, brown eyes. He noticed the mascara underneath my eyes and tried to wipe it away softly with his thumb. ''I'm still working on it, but sometimes I like to listen to it while I think of you.''

I didn't want him to see my cheeks turning red, so I rested my head on his shoulder. I couldn't say that I still hated him. His aftershave smelled like sandalwood, and his body was warm and comforting. Deep down I knew that I still loved him. I knew that he was the love of my life. The thought of that scared me a little sometimes. I was so scared that things would go wrong, that I let them go wrong just so that I wouldn't have to be scared anymore. But I wouldn't want to get close to losing him, ever again.

''Oh, baby. Oh, man. You're makin' me crazy. Really drivin' me mad. That's alright with me. It's really no fuss. As long as you're next to me. Just the two of us.''

I didn't know the song, but it sounded beautiful and it was very fitting for the situation between me and Rain. I closed my eyes while we listened to the rest of the playlist together.

''You're my, my, my, my kind of woman. My, oh my, what a girl. You're my, my, my, my kind of woman. And I'm down on my hands and knees. Beggin' you please, baby. Show me your world.''