SINNERS [ MASSIMO & GRACE ]

I MISSED THIS

👯 GRACE 👯

" I'm sorry " Massimo said as he kissed me softly and at that point , I couldn't even recognize his voice ..he sound broken and hurt .

" Massimo ...you're just hurting the both of us by fighting this ...." I trailed and he rubbed his face .

" I don't want to feel anything Grace ..I've always been numb and I wanna remain that way ....this thing between us would be our doom ,  you saw what happened with Gina right , for the first time I felt my heart stop beating ....." He said and my heart fluttered softly .

It felt like I had butterflies in my stomach , I knew what I felt for Massimo and although we are so different I was willing and ready to embrace it ...my fear was the fact that Massimo could reject me .

I'd already lost too much after knowing him, my dreams my time and my virginity  loosing my heart to him and not getting his in return....." I trailed in fear and I felt him hold my hand .

" I care about you grace ,a lot and maybe even more than I should ...I've never been scared of myself like the way I am lately ..." He said and tears rolled out of my eyes.

" Massimo..... I" I trailed .

" Don't ... please ...don't do say anything Grace ...I don't want to hurt you ...I'm not worth it " he said and my heart went out to him .

" No one's worth it Massimo , but we need to love because that's what keeps us going ...that's the most beautiful feeling in the world .... and it completes us " I said and he shook his head .

" You don't understand Grace ...I don't even know how ...' he trailed .

" Let me teach you Massimo ...just open up to me ....let me In .... please" I said and he just stared at me.

" Grace this is not a movie ...it's reality and trust me ...if I have to choose between the mafia honour and what I feel , I'd honour my duty ....that's the difference between the both of us " he said and I gave a nod as I sucked on my lower lip as tears rolled out uncontralably.

I wanted to shout and scream for my voice to be heard but nothing came out , what happened with George couldn't compare to the pain I was feeling at that instant.

It was as if Massimo held my heart in his heart and shred it into a million pieces .

I walked close to the bed and immediately I lay down a painful sob left my lips .

" Grace " I heard him call but I refuse to turn . He climbed up into the bed and as he pulled me into his arms from behind I let the sobs out as I cried .

I let out everything that had been bothering my heart , my shattered dreams and aspirations .

I didn't even know what fate had in store for me and I was already inlove with my heartless husband .

My stepsister was after my life and it didn't help that I had no one , absolutely no one ...

No shoulder to lean on ... I bit my lower lip and wiped my tears .

I was done , so done waiting for anyone to love me ... I'm no Cinderella...

I'm going to make sure Gina wouldn't meet the same Grace she'd met the other time .

The next morning when I woke up Massimo wasn't present in the room, I got down from the bed and when I walked towards the terrace he was there  staring at the estate .