waiting.

what just actually happened ?

*Luke's pov* (suprise suprise)

I watched Avril walk down the hallway. She had her head down and with a small pace , she just exited my sight.
I tried to get two and two together but i really dint understand what was she trying to say.

I tried to shrug it off and decided to talk to this about al later.
But i just couldnt forget. It actually stung when she said that it was better she keeps distance away from me.
I dont know. I dont know why ?

The next evening when i was at al's place , i asked her "al , what wrong with avril ? Have you tried contacting her ? I heard you guys arent talking. I saw her today. She did seem quite anxious when i bought you up. But then i bought her coffee and left her home. She does not look fine. I can say that. "

Al had this rather unpleasantary look on her face. It was like you could hear her loud breath and churning stomach .

She gave me my coffee and said " i dont know. I was busy all these days and i couldnt contact her. I called her yesterday and she dint pick up. Maybe she is really upset. I have to make it up tommorow. I dont think theres anything else. Relax "

She changed the topic but i still wasnt ready to go along with her explanation. I let it go.

We watched Mean girls for like the 40th time (dont know why al loved it so much. Urgh.)
We finished and i headed home.

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The next day , my first class was literature. This time we all were there. Except al is going to fly home for emergency. Again. I mean like she almost missed a month of school and again this. I dont think she wont even be able to make up with avril.
She will be probably leaving for airport now. I was bummed i couldnt see her off.

I picked up the books from my locker and was about to head to the class. When i saw avril.

This was the perfect chance. I thought.

"AVRIL! AVRIL ! WAIT UP"

She stopped. Thankgod.

She turned to me and said "please dont make this harder. I dont want to talk about whatever you are about to".

"just a minute. Just listen to me".

I lifted her chin up so mine and her face is parallel.
I looked into her eyes. She stared into mine. I saw her watery eyes. But i saw something beyond those grief holding eyes. I saw galaxies. Galaxies wich were never ending. Galaxies which had lost thier shine. And were waitinf for the stars to shine. She had a whole wide world inside her. And it was all dull. It was waiting to be lightened up. Just like a flower waited to be watered.

We somehow just got so lost , some random dude broke up the silence.

"Excuse me , no romance in school. Its eco friendly here"

I looked at Avril and mumbled sorry and started to walk to the class.
Now i understood every thing she said.
I understood why.
This girl was so broken , but was ready to eat it up all just to save the world all the grief. She needed someone to love. Her plants needed the water ,those galaxies needed the stars. I guess all that is love.

Because we humans are drunk in the fact that love , and only love can heal our tethered smiles , broken souls and unsettling lies.