waiting.

I really dont know.

Alice somehow persuaded me to stay at her place. Considering the fact that my privacy was the biggest thing i valued , but it was alice , so i made an exception.
And ofcourse cal got his lasagna. He had been good and helped us . Minus the part that he kept on continuosly bickering about how luke got to go but he didnt .

You must be wondering , whats the connection here.
Right.

I was shocked when i learned this , but i guess you guys can handle this too. Lol.
So luke's dad and al's mom were in a long relationship before they both got married , to different people ofcourse.
Theyre relationship didnt work out and they ended up with different people. Weird af. But theyre still friends , and thats why both the families are close. Basically cousins.

Back to the sleepover part , after finishing a stack over of waffles and pancakes the next day , i made my way back home. Tired.

Coz thats not what sleepovers are for.

I slammed the door shut just to be greeted by a very familiar car .

When is the clićhe movie ending. Urgh.

Luke of course. Thats what makes it so cliche. My life has became a movie and i so dont enjoy it.

He pulled up his gaze from his phone and i quicky turned my gaze , pretending i didnt see him.
But , too late.

God loves me. Doesnt he.

"Hey avril. What brings you here? Its been a long time isnt it. You know i...."

"Umm , does this fact not stay in your senses that alice is my bestfriend ?
Yeah.
Therefore you shouldnt be suprised if you find me here."

"Av. Av ? Whats wrong ? Whats gotten your wand in a knot ? "

Now you know where i get these references from . Gotcha.

You being ignorant about something that disturbs me every night is whats wrong. You being oblivious to my feelings is whats wrong. Just. Everything is wrong.

"Nah. Nothing. Im fine. Im just in a rush. Ill catch ya later. Byeeee"

I swiftly turned away from the corner to my house , which is just four blocks away.
With tears ofcourse.

Emotions. Fucking emotions. They cant be happy can they. They always need to be sad. You just always end up in a breakdown . Urgh.

As tears were slipping down my cheek. I walked alone in this wind. It was silent and the silence was defeaning.

As i wiped my face clean my heart and brain screamed together one thing. Suprisingly.

"Im gonna have to get used to this."

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School. School. Again school. Everyday school.
If theres one most pleasant thing to do everyday is to wake up in the morning when everyone is sleeping.

Note the sarcasm. Ofcourse youll do.

I hoppped in the shower , singing in the shower , also getting tired of that song.
( see what i did there )

I put on my sweatshirt with my skinny jeans and my skechers , putting my hair up in a bun. Just a little eyeliner , makeup was really not my thing.

And so was breakfast. I guess stress reduces your appetite.

And so the day went on normally , including the fact that even though luke repeatedly tried to ask me whats wrong , he eventually brushed it off and we started talking normally.

Because maybe, some things arent meant to change.