Heartless Love

᪥ Chapter 18 ~ Punishments

❤︎︎ DIMITRI'S POV ❤︎︎

She looked like a mess. Her hair was thrown up in a careless bun. Her under eyes were showing the fact that she was extremely tired. Her golden brown eyes looked dull....the shine that was in them when I first met her had disappeared.

I looked at her every now and then during the journey I was. She didn't look at me once her head was staring straight at the road ahead.

I couldn't help but catch a glimpse of her plump limps. She bit her bottom lip harshly. I noticed that whenever she was around me she would always bite her lip, probably from the tension.

If only she knew how much her biting those plump lips turned me on. If only she knew how much I wanted to devour those lips.....she was like a strong drug to me but I refused to give her attention. I refused to give in and be weak over a girl.

I didn't want her love. The one thing I wanted was to fuck her raw until- "Dimitri how long is left" she abruptly cut off my train of thought. I calmed myself down knowing that just thinking of all the things I could do to her turned me on so fucking much.

I could see through my peripheral vision that she still wasn't looking at me. Fuck! I carved for her attention. I hated the way she would focus on anything, any guy but me.

"10 minutes" I said. Still, she refused to look at me or even reply back to me.

"Look at me when I'm speaking to you Hashim. Do you fucking understand?" I spoke in my agitated voice. I could see her visibly flinch from my tone......good. In order for her to be under my control she needs to be afraid of me.

She finally looked up at me for a second before looking back to the road ahead. I could clearly see she was nervous.

I couldn't help but notice the makeup she had applied on her right cheek. I cleared my throat "you know Hashim what I did yesterday wasn't even the start of what I can do" I hated the way that after everything she still dared to disobey me. I watched closely as she bit her bottom lip even harder.

I placed my free hand on her thigh which made her flinch once again. "Get off of me" she croaked out in a pained voice......she was crying. I looked up from her thigh to her elegant face. My eyes stared at those glowy orbs. She turned to the window and wiped her overflowing tears. Fuck!.......

We were finally at the venue. It was my sister Anastasia's wedding. She dreamt of this since she was just a little girl, it wouldn't be fair to not bring one of her best friends.

"I don't want to go inside" I adjusted my tie and stared up at her.

"Well you don't have a choice" I made my way over to the passenger side and opened the door for her.

"What is this anyways?" I ignored her question knowing it would be more fun for her to find out by herself.

I moved out of the way, waiting for her to come out.

I clenched my jaw tightly when she refused to get out "Hashim stop acting like a child and get out" her watery eyes looked into my eyes which only made her more sensitive. I gritted my teeth "fuck!" She was getting on my nerves more than ever but I couldn't help but churn at the sight in front of me. My little tigritsa (tigress) was crying because of me.

I closed the passenger door and lit a fresh cigarette. I didn't fucking know what to do with her. I didn't know how to care for someone...how to comfort someone in need of it. Something in me told me I loved her but I didn't want to believe that, she was the girl I hated more than ever when I first met her. How can I love her?........I walked over to the end of the car park and sat down of the ground, staring off into the dark sky.