In love with my band leader?

chapter 37

"Mr and Mrs Erna the parents of May Erna..."

Me and Sully walked up to the doctor. "Yes?" We both asked. "I'm so sorry. We did everything we could, but she lost too much blood, I'm so sorry for your loss. You can go view May, shes at peace now." The doctor said. I turned to Sully, putting my head on his chest, and broke down in tears and screamed. My mom cried silently, Sully's parents cried. Even the guys cried. Sully held me and cried. I was screaming why couldn't they save her. I was so sad. Everyone was sad. Luckily Jett and the twins were sleeping. Oh how am I going to tell Jett. May and Jett were so close.

About a week later we had a funeral for May. I was the one at her coffin the most. Just crying. I eventually had to sit down I was getting lightheaded. May looked so peaceful laying there.

Everyone paid their respects and left tiny gifts and notes inside her coffin. Burying her was the hardest part for I knew I would never see my little girl again. As they lowered her into the ground I was screaming and crying into Sully's chest. He held me tightly. Why, how could this have happened. I didnt know a baby could suck the blood and literal life from you.

I went into a deep depression. I didnt neglect Jett and the twins, but I wasnt me. I would often find myself waking up in May's bed. I would wake up in her room and cry remembering her. I would remember all our fights and wished I could take every fight back. I wished for my May back again.

Sometimes Sully would wake up in the middle of the night to me screaming and crying in my sleep, crying out for may. He was doing everything he could to help, but nothing did. Everything reminded me of May.

As the months passed and passed, each day with out May, each day was hard. I was slowly becoming me but I was still sad.

A year had passed with out her. I had visited her grave almost everyday since she passed. Each day I missed her. Her smile, her laugh, even our fights, for I realized that they were stupid fights.

Her birthday slowly came, I decided to bring flowers to her grave. I stayed there almost all day, just talking, somewhat hoping she heard me from up above.

Each day was hard, just knowing we would never see May ever again, but knowing that she was in a better place made the pain somewhat better.

We all missed her, sometimes we would all come together and play songs just for her. Especially her favorite songs.

We had to put our tour on a "hold" because Tony lost his son. First me and Sully lost May, then Tony and his wife lost their son, I hoped there would be no more deaths.

We mourned Tony's son's death along with mourning May's death.

Jett kept asking where May was. I eventually had to tell him that May had passed away and she was now looking over us like a guardian angel. I took him to visit May's grave. He sat there talking as if she were there.

Not once has Sully been to her grave, may and sully were very close so it's been really hard on him. Hes still stuck in a depression stage.

I just hoped that one day no one would have to mourn and be depressed. It made me sad to think that we arent the only ones who have lost a child. Many other families loose their children. I just hope that no one would have to worry about having to bury their children. Death is a very sad thing, but we cant keep the good people here forever, they eventually have to return home to the good and loving Father.