It wasn't that I'd gotten emotional. My thoughts were jumbled up, so I didn't know what emotion I was feeling right then.
It wouldn't simply be because I'd lost Kim Hyunsung. This would be a more complex emotion than that. Maybe it was because I had failed.
"Failure..."
Lee Kiyoung had failed. I'd just realized that. Maybe that was why. Because everyone got angry about failures.
As Jihye had said, I might have been feeling overly stressed about getting out of the situation I was thinking of.
It might have been more appropriate to call it annoyance at having blown away my regressor card.
Literally, Kim Hyunsung had been the best hand I had.
He had been convenient to use, and he didn't cause any problems other than money.
He'd been a perfect fit for me and was the easiest puppet to control. The process had been quite annoying, but he'd grown into one of my most trusted and cherished players in the end.
Considering what I had invested in him, it wasn't unreasonable for me to feel that way.
I didn't know where it had gone wrong, but there must have been a problem with the process.
There were many factors of anxiety. I just couldn't remember. I was just ignoring it.
"Fuck..."
I kept thinking of him.
'Kiyoung.'
"Stupid bastard..."
'I'm an ordinary person, unlike you. But I can understand how valuable it is to sacrifice myself for something. I can't sacrifice for the continent, but I think I can sacrifice for you, who gave me many gifts. It is probably similar to how you look at this place and these people. It's less sublime but more valuable to me than anything else.'
"You stupid bastard... Who do you think you are...?"
'Goodbye...'
It was stupid that I hadn't thought this stupid bastard was sacrificing for me.
Because he'd been a coward. Right. Kim Hyunsung had been overly cowardly, and he'd had a knack for making people angry with even the smallest choices.
Perhaps the biggest problem was that I hadn't assumed that he'd made such a choice.
Everything I'd done to get inside Kim Hyunsung caught my ankle.
"Who the hell do you think you are to act like that? Know your place..."
It wasn't too sad if I thought about it. The guy had possessed too many flaws.
There had been so many flaws that I couldn't understand why I chose him.
Right. Think about it. He'd just been a big guy. He'd given me a lot of work, and I'd had to watch everything.
From the middle, it had been almost impossible to tell who was dragging whom.
He was the guy who'd chosen to live his life in his dreams, so what more did I need to say? I still got annoyed just thinking about it.
So I didn't have to be sad. I didn't have to think about failure, and I didn't have to stress about it.
'Humans are very strange.'
Right. You were right, Kim Hyunsung.
'It's all ruined ruins... but it does look a little pretty. It looks mysterious too. The red sunset...'
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Regressor Instruction Manual (PART 5)
FantasyTITLE Regressor Instruction Manual (회귀자 사용설명서) BY 흙수저 TRANSLATOR *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* STORY One day, I was summoned to this world. Beasts poured out, and an incredible crisis came. My talents couldn't have been worse. [The p...