•Unwanted Life• (Omegaverse) -Bakudeku-

Chapter Sixteen

･༓☾Monday, July 15th, XXXX☽༓･

The moment I opened my eyes, I felt a sense of emptiness. As I rubbed the sleep from my eyes, I quickly realized that my husband was nowhere to be found. That's when it hit me - he had left early for work. A sense of loneliness washed over me as I realized that I would have to spend the day alone.

I looked over at the empty bed beside me and sighed. I missed my husband already, even though he had only just left. I sat up and stretched my limbs, rubbing the last remnants of sleep from my eyes. As I glanced at the clock, I saw that it was already past 9 AM. I knew it was time to start my day.

I swung my feet over the edge of the bed and my feet hit the cold hardwood floor. I shivered reflexively, and then got up. As I looked around the room, I realized that I was the only one there. And so, I went about my morning routine of making the bed, brushing my teeth and hair, all while feeling a sense of isolation without my husband's company.

I wandered down the stairs, feeling the heaviness of the silent house weighing on me. As I entered the kitchen, the smell of fresh coffee filled my nostrils, and I smiled a little to myself.

I went to the counter to pour myself a cup of coffee. It was still steaming, and I savoured the aroma as I added a splash of milk. Taking a sip, I leaned forward against the counter and peered out of the kitchen window.

I could see the sun shining outside, birds chirping, and neighbours going about their morning routines. But despite the activity outside, I felt alone, and it made me sad. I missed my husband's presence, his infectious laughter and the way he brightened up every room he entered.

As I sit here in our dimly lit kitchen, I can't help but feel like something inside of me has shifted recently. And it all started the other night when Katsuki, marked me.

The first thing I noticed was that I felt vulnerable. And not just physically, but emotionally too. I'd always been a self-assured man, never really needing anyone to lean on. But now that I'm pregnant, things feel different. I don't know if it's the hormones or what, but it's like a switch has flipped inside of me, and I find myself needing him more than ever before.

The strangest part is that I've never been clingy with Katsuki. Not even in the beginning when we first started seeing each other. I always liked being strong and independent. I didn't want to depend on anyone else. But now, the idea of missing him feels like a physical ache in my chest. I've never experienced anything like it before. I can't stop thinking about him, and I find myself longing for his company in a way that surprises me.

It's like he's become a part of me, and I don't know how to function without him. And part of me wonders if it's just the pregnancy talking. Maybe it's just my hormones messing with me, telling me that I need him more than I really do. But I can't shake the feeling that it's something deeper than that. Maybe it's the bond between us growing stronger as we prepare to start a family together.

I've always prided myself on being self-sufficient, but now that I'm carrying his child, I'm starting to realize that maybe I can't do this alone. Maybe I need him more than I ever wanted to admit. But it's hard to cope with that feeling because I've never been one to need someone in my life.

It's like I'm caught in a constant cycle of wanting him here with me and feeling guilty for needing him so much. This feeling of vulnerability and clinginess is so foreign to me. I wonder if he notices it too. Does he feel the same need for me that I feel for him?

Sitting there with my coffee, I couldn't help but let my mind wander. My mate, Katsuki, was out there fighting off villains and saving lives, and all I could think about was if he was okay. The thought of him being hurt or worse filled me with dread. But then another thought crept in - what if he wasn't where he said he was? What if he was with another omega, fooling around behind my back?